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2020-03-12 - nice to see you 2020-03-11 - What ever happened to .......? 2015-06-14 - the neighborhood 2015-06-12 - money and health 2015-06-11 - angry narwals 2014-12-09 - dumping trash, sorry 2014-12-05 - addicted to the internet 2014-09-13 - - 2014-09-05 - work? 2014-08-17 - sugar and shit 2014-08-08 - medical 2014-07-13 - dogshit 2014-07-13 - berries and quitting etc 2014-07-09 - make love by laughing 2014-07-09 - make love by laughing 2014-06-17 - things I miss, things I don't 2014-06-09 - behind 2013-12-07 - be 2013-12-01 - dreams of M in Basel 2013-11-26 - I have a vehicle, and I have not lost 10 pounds 2013-11-11 - just diaryland 2013-11-02 - friends and family 2013-10-22 - ugh. contact from Alphie 2013-10-13 - kind of hopeless 2013-10-07 - nutrition, work, and (ex) friendship... 2013-09-23 - new practitioner 2013-09-14 - the wedding dream 2013-09-08 - going back 10 years 2013-09-07 - wedding bell blues and thinking about work 2013-08-29 - beginning at the gym... again... 2013-08-27 - dreams of M, and overweight 2013-08-24 - terse family situation 2013-07-07 - dreams, and real-life mice 2013-07-05 - another cleanse 2013-07-02 - an overwhelming day 2013-07-02 - the lotus dream 2013-07-02 - I hate her. 2013-07-01 - handful of chocolate chips and a mushy brain 2013-06-22 - other peoples' relationships 2013-06-12 - puffer fish and decapitation 2013-06-11 - morning reading, babies 2013-06-10 - shlub 2013-03-13 - a dream about Grace 2013-03-11 - post vacation 2013-03-04 - a luscious life 2013-02-13 - sugar update and other things 2013-02-07 - has it been 6 days already? 2013-01-31 - don't want the same old life 2013-01-26 - I don't wanna go anywhere! 2013-01-24 - getting back on the health horse 2013-01-19 - no sun, and I'm broke 2013-01-19 - no sun, and I'm broke 2013-01-07 - a day of exercise, and attempted triangulation 2013-01-07 - when do you get too old to play? 2013-01-05 - a new year 2013 2013-01-02 - um, apologies... 2012-11-27 - random socializing and whatnot 2012-11-05 - silkie 2012-10-21 - long day... still more to go 2012-10-21 - where I am with Thomas and Gia 2012-10-19 - tripping n blaming 2012-10-18 - what he took 2012-10-10 - crap on a stick 2012-10-10 - letters, and letters, and letters. 2012-10-04 - in the old neighborhood 2012-10-03 - weird 2012-10-02 - post-move jello brain 2012-10-01 - I've moved out 2012-09-16 - help with packing 2012-09-09 - health concerns and starting to pack 2012-08-26 - quick update 2012-08-10 - this is how the days go 2012-08-09 - nostalgia and other happenings 2012-08-06 - not in that place 2012-07-23 - some thoughts about moving 2012-07-17 - tricky lunch 2012-07-17 - exercise is good for me 2012-07-12 - dancing days 2012-07-10 - what can I change today?? 2012-07-10 - I want to run away 2012-07-09 - lake visit and needing sleep 2012-06-22 - tired... 2012-06-17 - - 2012-06-09 - here again 2012-05-30 - dreams of parasites oh my 2012-05-21 - bad patterns 2012-05-21 - in love with life... 2012-04-30 - see how it goes 2012-05-02 - a dream 2012-04-20 - one step at a time 2012-04-18 - baby steps 2012-04-14 - clarity, and something to look forward to! 2012-04-12 - stretching and crying 2012-04-10 - weekend with Ginny who may possibly be an alcoholic?? 2012-04-05 - due to the high cost of butter... 2012-04-04 - pinched nerve and back in action 2012-04-03 - home, not doing much 2012-04-01 - stood up, days off, dinner party 2012-03-28 - anger at Alphie, the selfish manipulative passive aggressive cocksucker 2012-03-26 - more than fair isn't fair 2012-03-25 - day at home and call with Emily 2012-03-23 - tummy roll and more 2012-03-21 - somebody's looking out 2012-03-20 - more Alphie drama; some hurtful words 2012-03-19 - my weekend 2012-03-15 - making progress 2012-03-13 - back on my pony 2012-03-12 - where have I been 2012-02-15 - lazy valentine's day, old hurts and trying to move on 2012-02-13 - who knows 2012-02-11 - waiting for a client 2012-02-10 - lil' update on all things physical, mental and emotional 2012-02-06 - day of chores and flexibility 2012-02-05 - irony, phone calls and more cleaning 2012-02-04 - cleaning and cooking and shopping! 2012-01-31 - doctors, dates and desires 2012-01-20 - keeping it together 2012-01-14 - holidays, travel and dating 2011-12-21 - letting people be mad at me 2011-12-20 - dreams and seeing Pam 2011-12-14 - 6 pounds and a bruised knee! 2011-12-10 - crisis 2011-12-10 - me again 2011-12-07 - some kind of exercise every day 2011-12-04 - from the depths of my pornographic mind... 2011-11-28 - exhaustion, exercise and a new diet 2011-11-25 - finally did a bit and sweet text from Will 2011-11-21 - shutting the door on M 2011-11-20 - my week away 2011-11-13 - timing, call from William 2011-11-12 - from quivering pile of goo to victory 2011-11-11 - fantasy hookup and wanting my own space 2011-11-10 - in the wrong profession 2011-11-09 - a breakthrough of sorts 2011-11-07 - sticking together, and finding support 2011-11-06 - alive another day 2011-11-05 - this fucking hurts 2011-11-05 - discovering mistakes and a night out 2011-11-03 - truly miserable 2011-11-02 - overwhelm, money, and more overwhelm 2011-11-01 - work and quitting and sickness oh my 2011-10-31 - new laptop 2011-10-29 - anyway... 2011-10-28 - protecting the child part and delicious desserts 2011-10-27 - can't reach the pedals 2011-10-24 - believing in the impossible 2011-10-24 - does it have to be hard? 2011-10-22 - Gail's will and HSC 2011-10-22 - plans in the making 2011-10-22 - sick for the weekend 2011-10-20 - Emily's hamster wheel and more 2011-10-20 - dodged them bullets 2011-10-17 - so be it 2011-10-12 - tim and pam situation and family time 2011-10-11 - friends' weird behavior... 2011-10-09 - confessions of a crush 2011-10-06 - - 2011-09-29 - quit today? 2011-09-28 - just numb 2011-09-26 - talk with Gia, recap of the week 2011-09-21 - ... and a funeral 2011-09-15 - excessiveness and yoga... 2011-09-08 - 18 days later... 2011-08-21 - home again... back to work 2011-08-18 - lack of mirth 2011-08-11 - really want to change 2011-08-03 - sigh and double sigh 2011-07-31 - irony and medium wistfulness 2011-07-30 - a place for everything 2011-07-29 - day with Marva, Emily, and reset 2011-07-28 - one step at a time, again 2011-07-22 - shame 2011-07-16 - the week I've had 2011-07-11 - hard feedback from a friend 2011-07-09 - lots of naps, dream of G 2011-07-08 - a day off, bad plumbing 2011-07-07 - yes, I did that bad thing 2011-06-24 - lots of truths 2011-06-23 - my best, again 2011-06-22 - hopefully... 2011-06-20 - made it through the weekend 2011-06-15 - the pervasive feeling of enmeshment 2011-06-07 - wanting truly clean breaks 2011-06-05 - HELLo 2011-06-04 - health stuff slowing me down 2011-06-01 - everybody knows everybody 2011-05-31 - a quick one 2011-05-25 - grumbles and such 2011-05-25 - better man in my future 2011-05-23 - errands and work on a Sunday, oh my 2011-05-21 - bad travel decisions and dinner with the maids 2011-05-20 - going to work 2011-05-19 - leave it for tomorrow 2011-05-18 - all that lies ahead 2011-05-16 - back to the grind 2011-05-10 - 6 exhausting days, but mostly good news 2011-05-04 - yoga and beauty 2011-05-01 - reception 2011-04-28 - days before travel 2011-04-26 - huge relief 2011-04-21 - day three 2011-04-18 - day one 2011-04-17 - productive and good 2011-04-16 - better insurance 2011-04-14 - don't be a shitbird 2011-04-12 - pt job blues 2011-04-11 - busy weekend, long day 2011-04-09 - parties and shit 2011-04-07 - visiting, humiliation, school, and other things 2011-04-01 - darkly dreaming 2011-03-31 - onward 2011-03-30 - semblance of rest 2011-03-29 - ready for a change 2011-03-27 - a weekend of work 2011-03-25 - slow... and Shelby 2011-03-24 - dance more 2011-03-22 - refreshed... -looking, anyway 2011-03-20 - start fresh 2011-03-16 - last day of vacation and the kindness of strangers 2011-03-14 - cowering, or moving... 2011-03-11 - beginning of vacation 2011-03-06 - so attached 2011-03-04 - detoxing, I think... 2011-02-28 - noticing about myself 2011-02-26 - breakdown of my plan before vacation... 2011-02-23 - more, and more 2011-02-21 - a little negativity with your tea? 2011-02-20 - alligators and baby rams 2011-02-19 - home I go 2011-02-18 - day with Steffy 2011-02-16 - another all-nigher 2011-02-15 - drag 2011-02-14 - wedding bitches 2011-02-14 - vday thoughts 2011-02-12 - the story today 2011-02-10 - ethics, food, and other stuff 2011-02-08 - not quite right... 2011-02-05 - one day at a time 2011-02-04 - anxiety and crumbling 2011-02-03 - still digging, with teaspoon 2011-02-01 - out of the house 2011-01-30 - waterslide race and dancing with Smitten 2011-01-26 - Shelby, fasting, dating, and ugh 2011-01-24 - cleaning 2011-01-22 - the relationship measuring stick, et al 2011-01-18 - bridesmaid blues 2011-01-16 - another update 2011-01-04 - I am a bridesmaid 2011-01-02 - new year 2011 2010-12-29 - tired holiday 2010-12-27 - still stressed 2010-12-26 - grieve it and leave it 2010-12-22 - I need rest 2010-12-21 - dizzy spells and date with G 2010-12-07 - girls and boys and nachos 2010-12-06 - blah entry 2010-11-30 - find another way 2010-11-30 - mundane, disgusted, despondent... and more 2010-11-29 - day at home 2010-11-28 - things I haven't done 2010-11-25 - indulgence 2010-11-24 - holiday with family 2010-11-21 - surrender to the unknown 2010-11-18 - feelings about my health 2010-11-17 - no middle setting 2010-11-15 - maybe that's it 2010-11-13 - Alphie/Grace news and some morning musings 2010-11-12 - don't know how to feel 2010-11-11 - the obsessive type 2010-11-09 - crushing on G 2010-11-07 - time with G 2010-11-03 - expanding my worldview 2010-11-01 - back in the saddle 2010-10-31 - memory portals, et al 2010-10-30 - not a straight talker 2010-10-28 - a weird day at the dentist 2010-10-26 - time to cut it 2010-10-25 - knowing more than I think I do 2010-10-20 - working into a frenzy... 2010-10-12 - past few days... 2010-10-09 - bus and train 2010-10-08 - afternoon off 2010-10-05 - weird dreams, false alarm at work, stomachache 2010-10-04 - ladies' day 2010-10-03 - possibilities are endless on this day off... 2010-10-02 - the girl who can't get laid, part 936 2010-10-01 - crazy duck 2010-09-30 - september 30th 2010-09-28 - up early, on the go 2010-09-27 - "second date" with G 2010-09-26 - a day for me, a night with G 2010-09-24 - no sex, cont. 2010-09-23 - two boyfriends, and rest 2010-09-23 - virginity! 2010-09-21 - you won't believe it! 2010-09-15 - dating difficulties... all over! 2010-09-13 - weekend and great talk with G 2010-09-12 - long entry- everything I want 2010-09-02 - travel, work, secrets, dating 2010-08-31 - at the parents' 2010-08-25 - traveling, school, and boys 2010-08-22 - lion and rhinoceros on a Sunday 2010-08-21 - chillin' and online dating 2010-08-19 - mildly surprised 2010-08-18 - what can I say... I can say this 2010-08-17 - same stupid shit, but no judgment about it 2010-08-17 - tightrope of miserability 2010-08-14 - forgetful puppy and rest and renewal 2010-08-13 - cute comments, not impressed 2010-08-12 - happy enough 2010-08-11 - if you're worried 2010-08-10 - the sleep connection 2010-08-08 - wrapping up a great weekend... other thoughts 2010-08-07 - determined not to be miserable 2010-08-07 - judgments and apologies 2010-08-06 - the principle of the thing 2010-08-05 - dreams in august 2010-08-05 - restraining myself from old patterns... 2010-08-04 - just how I feel 2010-08-03 - sad and angry 2010-08-02 - additional 2010-08-01 - intimacy 2010-07-30 - love to me 2010-07-29 - triangulation, again 2010-07-24 - 8 days 2010-07-15 - good, and bad 2010-07-15 - brief connection with Roc 2010-07-13 - not a peep 2010-07-09 - flight, in dreams and real life 2010-07-08 - the bi question 2010-07-07 - hard edges 2010-07-04 - a weekend of unexpecteds... 2010-07-02 - friends I don't wanna see 2010-07-01 - two blowables 2010-06-30 - up-too-late, sleep-too-late 2010-06-29 - W emails and stomach pains 2010-06-29 - a little work on a hot summer day 2010-06-27 - wedding and more 2010-06-26 - a little bit down 2010-06-26 - W, Don, Shelby and Zeke 2010-06-24 - day off 2010-06-23 - pandora and more 2010-06-17 - w resurfaces and leaving work early 2010-06-16 - potential blowjobs, divorce et al 2010-06-15 - my own inadequacies 2010-06-15 - time with Marva 2010-06-14 - oy 2010-06-12 - helping or hurting 2010-06-11 - sick? 2010-06-10 - two busy weekends and breaking up 2010-05-24 - surprises- don't like 'em 2010-05-23 - your opinion 2010-05-23 - dinner and a movie 2010-05-20 - not feelin' so hot... 2010-05-20 - two vulnerable emails 2010-05-19 - the truth of it, via serena 2010-05-19 - communications and money 2010-05-18 - petra spills the beans 2010-05-17 - staying away from the rabbit hole 2010-05-17 - am I ever gonna heal? 2010-05-14 - killer whale and turtle 2010-05-13 - last few days... Shelby et al 2010-05-07 - gross and inappropriate 2010-05-06 - skeeved 2010-05-06 - waxin', and not going back 2010-05-05 - being me 2010-05-04 - what the hell 2010-05-02 - trying to get through 2010-05-01 - big boy 2010-04-27 - Universe, take care of me! 2010-04-27 - long days, and too much flirting 2010-04-23 - a boundary with Paul 2010-04-22 - holding it together 2010-04-16 - crazy 2010-04-15 - misunderstood 2010-04-14 - staying active 2010-04-13 - work and money and nasty sisters 2010-04-10 - more than a mortal woman should do 2010-04-09 - busy days 2010-04-07 - gifts 2010-04-05 - accomplishments, dreams and my pushup 2010-04-05 - irritations and grocery shopping 2010-04-03 - annoyance and advice 2010-04-02 - waiting for joy 2010-04-02 - more dreams of Shana and Bruce 2010-04-02 - a bit closer 2010-04-01 - less sleep, tricky phone calls, and bad tv 2010-03-31 - purging and such 2010-03-30 - 30th of march 2010-03-30 - time to myself 2010-03-29 - plans with Zeke 2010-03-29 - week with Gia 2010-03-23 - more cleaning blah blah blah 2010-03-21 - to the max 2010-03-21 - more about Zeke 2010-03-20 - Zeke and wonderland 2010-03-18 - where to go from here? 2010-03-16 - under wraps 2010-03-15 - television 2010-03-15 - undependable 2010-03-15 - contributing 2010-03-14 - working my ass off 2010-03-12 - food and dance 2010-03-12 - letting go of the attachment to being heard 2010-03-11 - no contemporaries 2010-03-11 - Smitten, John, etc - blah 2010-03-10 - talk with John, and all I know 2010-03-09 - presumption 2010-03-08 - procrastinating and cleaning cupboards 2010-03-07 - small world, awkward 2010-03-07 - woke up shaking 2010-03-06 - longing 2010-03-05 - another goal 2010-03-04 - learning from each other 2010-03-03 - triangles and enmeshments 2010-03-02 - transitions 2010-03-01 - chill out 2010-02-28 - she lent me a tube top 2010-02-27 - on my way 2010-02-27 - rambling catch up... 2010-02-26 - sticking to my guns 2010-02-24 - successes of today 2010-02-23 - not terribly interested 2010-02-21 - unsettling emails, and choosing inner peace 2010-02-20 - the very very very long day- cross your fingers 2010-02-18 - if I could just sleep 2010-02-17 - pancakes and fish 2010-02-15 - valentine recap 2010-02-14 - using the day to love myself 2010-02-13 - angry - at what? 2010-02-12 - foundation 2010-02-11 - penii and more 2010-02-07 - h and t 2010-02-07 - somewhere worthwhile 2010-02-05 - mixture of feelings 2010-02-03 - three ways I'm okay about Thursday 2010-02-01 - unraveling 2010-01-31 - horse to water 2010-01-31 - Stacey and Kelly, and dreams about mom 2010-01-30 - the boss 2010-01-29 - so it goes 2010-01-29 - always something 2010-01-27 - blah blah blah 2010-01-24 - two things 2010-01-23 - undercurrent of my insecurity... 2010-01-21 - above and beyond 2010-01-18 - dinner date with Shelby 2010-01-17 - overthinking 2010-01-15 - thought it was thursday 2010-01-14 - expectations 2010-01-12 - day of class 2010-01-10 - the unexpected 2010-01-08 - bit off more than I could chew 2010-01-08 - packing, procrastinating 2010-01-07 - catch 22 2010-01-06 - the wedding dream 2010-01-05 - catching up and getting ready 2010-01-05 - Ex and home 2010-01-04 - who I'd like to be 2010-01-03 - the frog dream 2010-01-01 - the party and year in review 2009-12-31 - never again! 2009-12-31 - fear, anger, sadness and joy 2009-12-29 - people I didn't see 2009-12-29 - Smitten and chocolates 2009-12-25 - work for 2010 2009-12-22 - slow... 2009-12-22 - run-in with Luke 2009-12-21 - the problem with Shelby... not really a problem 2009-12-21 - shattering 2009-12-20 - number twoooo for today 2009-12-19 - procrastinating on a saturday 2009-12-18 - day with the girls, and future plans 2009-12-17 - day with Emily, conversations with Gail, and perhaps a phone call from M? 2009-12-16 - here I go 2009-12-15 - gift horse 2009-12-14 - finances and more 2009-12-10 - call, caretaking, and boundaries 2009-12-09 - people who piss me off 2009-12-09 - a night with Shelby, et al 2009-12-06 - chick weekend etc 2009-12-03 - space and a bright future 2009-12-02 - operation feng shui 2009-12-02 - no deep end for me 2009-12-01 - confusion, hello 2009-11-30 - some thoughts on 11/30/09 2009-11-30 - too old 2009-11-27 - fuckface relative 2009-11-27 - illuminations on exes 2009-11-26 - "over there" and "over here" 2009-11-25 - visiting the parents 2009-11-23 - the revolving door of karma 2009-11-21 - conversation with Shelby 2009-11-19 - negative, positive, positive, negative 2009-11-19 - curve ball 2009-11-18 - thanksgiving plans, things are changing all the time 2009-11-17 - blah. and blah. 2009-11-16 - easier said than done 2009-11-14 - flakeyville and trainwrecks 2009-11-12 - irks and gratitudes 2009-11-09 - adventures with Shelby 2009-11-07 - spark 2009-11-07 - no downtime, no write! 2009-11-03 - itty bitty entry 2009-10-30 - delayed and intact 2009-10-25 - eyes wide open 2009-10-18 - no R 2009-10-13 - I deserve better 2009-10-13 - life now 2009-10-10 - metaphor 2009-10-08 - difficult 2 yr?! 2009-10-05 - the comma-less entry 2009-10-02 - lounging around 2009-09-30 - sabotage and hope 2009-09-29 - dizzy 2009-09-25 - indulgence 2009-09-24 - Smitten email; Alphie conversation 2009-09-23 - breaking up pt2 2009-09-21 - no energy, sorry 2009-09-18 - tears, and a letter to W 2009-09-15 - this morning's dreams 2009-09-14 - i am angry!!!! 2009-09-14 - gobs and gobs of truth 2009-09-12 - worry? 2009-09-11 - signs 2009-09-11 - self-pity and anger, plain and simple 2009-09-07 - at the lake 2009-09-04 - breaking a habit 2009-09-03 - sad 2009-09-03 - out with Capricorn 2009-09-02 - man faucet 2009-09-01 - late night decisions, etc. 2009-09-01 - stomachache 2009-08-31 - weak 2009-08-30 - date with Gemini 2009-08-28 - new numbers and a crush 2009-08-26 - words vs. actions 2009-08-25 - STC.... 2009-08-24 - not good for me 2009-08-21 - today's thoughts 2009-08-18 - occasional bad decisions 2009-08-17 - couple of nice things, and a decision about Smitten 2009-08-15 - memorials and ignoring 2009-08-13 - rough day for everyone 2009-08-12 - pat on the back 2009-08-11 - not sure 2009-08-10 - drama from hometown 2009-08-09 - untangled 2009-08-08 - breaking up 2009-08-07 - goodnight baby 2009-08-06 - cosmic thing 2009-08-04 - cheeseburger 2009-08-01 - bad news from home 2009-07-31 - embarrassing 2009-07-29 - night with the girls 2009-07-29 - crabby, ticking off the Smitten list 2009-07-28 - the usual patterns, and a dream about M 2009-07-27 - kissed, pissed, missed..... 2009-07-24 - pulled back in 2009-07-23 - slightly unsettled 2009-07-20 - catching up on the weekend 2009-07-16 - iceberg of an idea 2009-07-15 - shame spiral 2009-07-14 - when I least expect it... 2009-07-13 - oh Mickey, you're so.... drunk 2009-07-12 - "the way he looks" fears revealed 2009-07-11 - late-night thoughts 2009-07-10 - remaining myself 2009-07-09 - reassessment 2009-07-08 - kisstery solved 2009-07-07 - describing a monday on a tuesday 2009-07-06 - good notes and an invitation 2009-07-06 - someone who could hold me (long entry) 2009-07-03 - a little of that 2009-07-02 - mixed messages 2009-07-01 - burst of responsibility and a surprise guest 2009-06-30 - disappointing dream, etc. 2009-06-29 - three men 2009-06-28 - good to have a friend 2009-06-26 - such a thing 2009-06-26 - job app and the disappearance of Marva 2009-06-24 - sleepover 2009-06-23 - my morass, and judgments 2009-06-22 - one day at a time 2009-06-20 - back from the lake 2009-06-18 - interact with life 2009-06-17 - up for review 2009-06-14 - it's true 2009-06-12 - reasonably mended 2009-06-11 - confession 2009-06-10 - tech support 2009-06-08 - strange, but normal 2009-06-05 - tired 2009-06-04 - slippery types 2009-06-04 - last day at the old homestead 2009-06-03 - secret? 2009-06-02 - the best I can do 2009-06-02 - am I missing something? 2009-06-01 - seeds et al 2009-05-30 - angriest entry ever? and a sweet spot 2009-05-27 - duck and the magic tea 2009-05-27 - he's back... 2009-05-25 - productivity and getting rid of the hassles... 2009-05-24 - broken through 2009-05-23 - where is my self love? 2009-05-22 - i'm a girl 2009-05-22 - so much I can stand 2009-05-20 - at peace (wishing) 2009-05-20 - things have changed 2009-05-19 - that is that 2009-05-18 - how do you stop? 2009-05-17 - touched my heart 2009-05-16 - crazy day 2009-05-16 - irritations 2009-05-15 - glad, mad 2009-05-14 - baby in the house 2009-05-13 - dirt, men and a visitor 2009-05-12 - eyebrows and more 2009-05-12 - surprise correspondences and too much anger 2009-05-12 - slightly unmasculine healer-type 2009-05-08 - frustrated 2009-05-06 - twisted 2009-05-05 - short entry... 2009-05-04 - greetings from the sleepless girl 2009-05-01 - bring me joy 2009-04-30 - giving up 2009-04-29 - starving for connection 2009-04-27 - right or wrong 2009-04-24 - sleep pudding 2009-04-23 - shana and bruce 2009-04-23 - working on anger 2009-04-21 - unfashionable me 2009-04-20 - depressed much? 2009-04-20 - my crumbling crumble 2009-04-19 - angry and sarcastic 2009-04-18 - edgy me 2009-04-17 - tattling, texting, and tea 2009-04-15 - start all over again 2009-04-14 - if/when 2009-04-13 - assumptions and reflections 2009-04-13 - discharging the YUCK 2009-04-12 - keeping the ball rolling 2009-04-11 - the kissing question 2009-04-10 - class, photos, and forgiveness 2009-04-08 - airport entry 2009-04-08 - back spasms 2009-04-07 - counting my blessings 2009-04-06 - Jerry & Smitten 2009-04-05 - HUGE realization and bitchin' about men 2009-04-03 - not the only pea 2009-04-01 - giddy and smitten 2009-03-31 - and so it goes 2009-03-30 - taxes.... done! 2009-03-29 - trying to be positive 2009-03-28 - a day flies by 2009-03-27 - one of those days 2009-03-26 - a tiny dent, 2009-03-25 - call from Smitten 2009-03-25 - i need a miracle 2009-03-24 - all I can do 2009-03-23 - news from Smitten 2009-03-22 - on the 22nd day of march 2009-03-21 - so long 2009-03-20 - a lot of work 2009-03-19 - dog bites and therapy and texts, oh my 2009-03-19 - things to be depressed about, and more 2009-03-17 - lazy day 2009-03-17 - an exciting way to begin a tuesday 2009-03-16 - keep moving 2009-03-15 - slim pickins' 2009-03-14 - lack of entitlement, complaints about food 2009-03-10 - soup mission: success 2009-03-10 - venus in retrograde, and my six happies 2009-03-09 - zombies and such 2009-03-07 - health and men 2009-03-06 - quick entry 2009-03-05 - catch-up on chaotic wednesday 2009-03-03 - the glory of sleep 2009-03-02 - i'm pissed today! 2009-03-01 - good for me 2009-02-28 - wishes and do-overs 2009-02-27 - more things to do 2009-02-26 - compulsive 2009-02-25 - beebonky 2009-02-25 - two and six 2009-02-24 - text and a steak 2009-02-24 - not very productive 2009-02-24 - lots of shopping and a word about sarcasm 2009-02-23 - terrified obsessive freak 2009-02-22 - sick Smitten 2009-02-21 - a word about love 2009-02-20 - holding back 2009-02-20 - catching up in the airport 2009-02-18 - dream of Alphie 2009-02-16 - a circle of protection 2009-02-15 - climbing with M 2009-02-14 - my valentine day 2009-02-13 - highs and lows 2009-02-12 - a reasonably good system 2009-02-11 - after a long hard season 2009-02-11 - the Smitten mystery continues 2009-02-10 - a definite improvement 2009-02-09 - disappearing ones and the death of my vibrator 2009-02-08 - the complexities of Smitten 2009-02-07 - life and acupuncture 2009-02-06 - it will be okay 2009-02-06 - hangin' with the girls, movies, and more 2009-02-04 - theories and gratitude 2009-02-03 - lazy as hell with no apologies 2009-02-02 - penguin of the house 2009-02-02 - dodged a bullet, once again 2009-01-30 - rejection: an exploration 2009-01-29 - grief 2009-01-28 - if you speak french to a skunk... 2009-01-27 - a good lesson 2009-01-27 - it's official 2009-01-26 - day off 2009-01-26 - going away party 2009-01-24 - surprise, surprise 2009-01-23 - why I hate houseguests 2009-01-23 - I am an idiot; a new kind of insomnia 2009-01-21 - the risk of love 2009-01-20 - hope, and a waste of time 2009-01-19 - the desire to avoid future disasters 2009-01-16 - barking up all the wrong trees 2009-01-14 - how to get a man to call you 2009-01-13 - goodbye gift from Red 2009-01-13 - the sleepover 2009-01-11 - goat dreams 2009-01-11 - the fine line 2009-01-09 - sleeplessness night and busy day 2009-01-08 - a day completed 2009-01-07 - the asshole game 2009-01-07 - fear of flaws 2009-01-07 - it's not the reason I think 2009-01-07 - january 6th 2009-01-06 - a night of surprises 2009-01-05 - kissing epistle etc 2009-01-03 - getting caught up... 2009-01-02 - 2008: a year in review 2008-12-31 - frosting out of the can 2008-12-31 - 4 of cups and 8 of wands 2008-12-30 - loneliness 2008-12-30 - men who are hurting, they're like magnets! 2008-12-27 - home under blankets 2008-12-26 - somebody sucked the joy out of my holiday! 2008-12-23 - judgements from a sick girl 2008-12-23 - slightly better! and men and porn 2008-12-21 - the undecided M dream 2008-12-21 - date with Swing 2008-12-20 - 6 things to be grateful for 2008-12-20 - men with pith, etc. 2008-12-19 - dreams and earaches! 2008-12-18 - how will i know? 2008-12-17 - who can know? 2008-12-16 - phone calls from boys, etc... 2008-12-15 - long story short 2008-12-15 - a little crazy- shocked the shit outta me! 2008-12-13 - mistakes and stuff 2008-12-12 - being happy and believing 2008-12-11 - a shortage of erections 2008-12-10 - the letter e 2008-12-08 - something to be grateful for 2008-12-08 - the end of training... 2008-12-04 - a day of accomplishment and indulgence 2008-12-03 - cancellations, wrinkles, and more 2008-12-03 - clearer and clearer 2008-12-01 - one and two 2008-12-01 - margarine 2008-11-29 - i couldn't do it 2008-11-24 - owning my beauty 2008-11-23 - saturday ponderings 2008-11-21 - a complaint or two, and a word about timing 2008-11-20 - jumble 2008-11-17 - note to self: overwhelming levels 2008-11-16 - me and my options 2008-11-14 - kicking and screaming 2008-11-13 - in which the answer is revealed 2008-11-13 - in any case... 2008-11-12 - what to say for myself 2008-11-10 - moth to the flame 2008-11-06 - too much sugar? 2008-11-05 - playing hard to get 2008-11-04 - I kissed a boy, and now he wants to tryst me 2008-10-31 - i do not know 2008-10-31 - howard calls me a nasty name 2008-10-30 - another day gone- between pie and laziness 2008-10-29 - I want to tell you 2008-10-29 - kind of organized 2008-10-28 - the white unicorn 2008-10-28 - surviving 2008-10-27 - invitation from a broken heart 2008-10-26 - questions and opinions 2008-10-26 - hard road 2008-10-25 - do I love him? 2008-10-24 - all I ever say 2008-10-23 - houseguests 2008-10-22 - saying it through music? 2008-10-20 - damage control 2008-10-18 - no harem for me, thanks 2008-10-16 - now we're getting somewhere 2008-10-15 - a full heart 2008-10-13 - boring check-in 2008-10-12 - squeaking by 2008-10-11 - what I'm going for 2008-10-10 - a little lonely 2008-10-10 - short note 2008-10-07 - single forever 2008-10-06 - gail, more birth control and another M 2008-10-04 - very soon 2008-10-03 - feeling his heart 2008-10-02 - a user and a loser 2008-10-02 - i will be all right 2008-10-01 - been gone... 2008-09-24 - i must be changing 2008-09-23 - after a rough weekend 2008-09-19 - boring boring boring 2008-09-18 - lost to the world 2008-09-17 - the mattress 2008-09-17 - the picture and the mattress 2008-09-13 - dinner, yum 2008-09-12 - one step at a time 2008-09-12 - loose ends and gossip 2008-09-12 - communication, of sorts, with Alphie 2008-09-11 - the cards 2008-09-10 - depressed and afraid 2008-09-08 - checking in, not very exciting 2008-09-06 - unbearable 2008-09-05 - a day of confusions 2008-09-04 - stupid IMs 2008-09-03 - the unexpected 2008-09-02 - a nice distraction 2008-09-02 - five complaints 2008-09-02 - learning something? 2008-09-01 - my new favorite thing 2008-08-31 - jewelry, dreams and dating 2008-08-29 - wrong with me... 2008-08-28 - the 28th of August 2008-08-24 - shiny packages and fairy-tale endings 2008-08-22 - anything I set my mind to 2008-08-20 - cycles of sadness and anger 2008-08-19 - who, me, stressed? 2008-08-17 - catchup 2008-08-12 - dog duty 2008-08-11 - running around 2008-08-09 - feeling better... 2008-08-09 - stressed and more 2008-08-08 - hate my bank 2008-08-08 - honesty 2008-08-07 - broken glass 2008-08-06 - little boys 2008-08-05 - ...and other irritations 2008-08-05 - rescuing babies 2008-08-05 - long day, no date 2008-08-02 - that, or something better 2008-08-02 - the big book 2008-08-01 - physical discomfort, dreams, and a boring life 2008-07-31 - the bottom line 2008-07-30 - less obsessive, more relieved 2008-07-30 - what happened? 2008-07-29 - the right frame of mind 2008-07-28 - moving forward 2008-07-27 - after the date 2008-07-26 - back from the wedding 2008-07-26 - last minute 2008-07-25 - hardly feel excited 2008-07-25 - dreamquiche 2008-07-25 - why I hate this 2008-07-23 - personal growth, a message from the cute man 2008-07-23 - picked up 2008-07-22 - but, tell us what you really think 2008-07-15 - change of scenery 2008-07-14 - everybody is an asshole, at one point or another 2008-07-13 - feeling slightly better 2008-07-13 - me, a person of substance 2008-07-12 - every day a little nightmare 2008-07-08 - my new template 2008-07-06 - riding the shark 2008-07-03 - responsibility and vampires 2008-07-02 - dumping some thoughts before going to work 2008-06-30 - new shoes? 2008-06-30 - bone ache 2008-06-30 - plants and things 2008-06-29 - unrequited love 2008-06-28 - whatever it takes 2008-06-27 - my new job 2008-06-27 - i used to be more interesting 2008-06-27 - more therapy 2008-06-26 - feathers and snow 2008-06-25 - giant popsicle 2008-06-24 - doozy of a dream, what does it mean? 2008-06-23 - just a thought 2008-06-23 - dreams of today and a healthy breakfast 2008-06-22 - possibility 2008-06-22 - avoiding the box of death 2008-06-22 - digging deep, and other stuff 2008-06-21 - liar, liar, pants on fire - i'm a shitty friend 2008-06-20 - update: the lump and everybody else 2008-06-20 - angel 2008-06-19 - difficult men, difficult me 2008-06-14 - big love, little love 2008-06-13 - hormones, Alphie, and proper parenting 2008-06-13 - feeling like I do 2008-06-12 - anniversary 2008-06-12 - reflection 2008-06-10 - long-ass day 2008-06-09 - preposterous ideas 2008-06-07 - quotes 2008-06-06 - the need-a-nap entry 2008-06-06 - no more resistance 2008-06-04 - getting through today 2008-06-03 - catching up after 6 days 2008-05-28 - more insomnia 2008-05-27 - the contents of my brain 2008-05-26 - if I can't shoot him, I'd at least like to stab him 2008-05-25 - letter to my big sister 2008-05-25 - meditaton on trust 2008-05-24 - ashes don't heave 2008-05-23 - scooped out heart and longing for butter 2008-05-22 - the cosmic significance of my bath towel 2008-05-22 - there or here 2008-05-22 - awake 2008-05-21 - no more nightmares, please 2008-05-20 - staying with myself 2008-05-20 - shit on a stick 2008-05-20 - harder than it looks 2008-05-19 - unsupported? 2008-05-19 - pizza and back spasms 2008-05-18 - powerless 2008-05-18 - message from the Universe 2008-05-18 - what I know for now 2008-05-17 - at the bone 2008-05-17 - the revenge wardrobe 2008-05-16 - Friday musings 2008-05-15 - invitation and a new dress 2008-05-15 - help help help 2008-05-15 - good for myself... 2008-05-14 - missing and afraid... a dream 2008-05-13 - new friends 2008-05-12 - nothing interesting to say 2008-05-12 - hmm, diaries... 2008-05-12 - crazy 2008-05-11 - three conversations 2008-05-10 - unrealistic expectations get you... disappointment 2008-05-08 - snooze alarm 2008-05-08 - new hair! pretty! aaargh! 2008-05-07 - to look forward to 2008-05-06 - trust and beauty 2008-05-06 - vanishing entry, man-themes, and a flood in the desert 2008-05-05 - cyberspace ate my healing entry! 2008-05-05 - please tell me 2008-05-05 - irritations and "as long as it takes" 2008-05-04 - dreams dreams dreams! 2008-05-04 - fruits and cookies 2008-05-03 - the breakup book 2008-05-02 - hard time 2008-05-02 - witch school 2008-05-02 - sweaty and sneaky 2008-05-01 - goals, nice memories, and hmm 2008-04-30 - the hollow grey moon 2008-04-29 - the lost child 2008-04-28 - getting seen through 2008-04-28 - my spiritual crisis 2008-04-28 - the pregnant dream, et al 2008-04-28 - 12:37am 2008-04-26 - coughing, nothing, and airlines 2008-04-25 - finances 2008-04-25 - tug of war 2008-04-25 - nobody's perfect 2008-04-25 - life is strange 2008-04-20 - dreams and a sore throat 2008-04-19 - till then 2008-04-18 - the next step? 2008-04-18 - swimming in numbness 2008-04-17 - adventures in travel 2008-04-16 - bug in my brain 2008-04-16 - tasks and therapy 2008-04-14 - being overwhelmed, pursued, and a little disappointed 2008-04-14 - nobody knows 2008-04-13 - exhausted update 2008-04-13 - i don't believe you 2008-04-12 - no time today! 2008-04-12 - tips, vulnerability, etc. 2008-04-11 - worry 2008-04-11 - a plan, of sorts 2008-04-10 - spring dreams 2008-04-09 - grrrr 2008-04-09 - bad attitude 2008-04-08 - slippery slope 2008-04-07 - treats 2008-04-06 - 2 men and moving on 2008-04-05 - the value of sleep 2008-04-04 - a new saw 2008-04-04 - lucky me 2008-04-03 - getting better 2008-04-03 - working it out 2008-04-03 - my plan 2008-04-02 - i remember 2008-04-01 - "friends" and problems 2008-03-31 - so be it 2008-03-28 - fuck him... and more 2008-03-26 - wily ego and waxing 2008-03-25 - finding fault 2008-03-23 - back to school 2008-03-22 - giving too freely and positive self-containment 2008-03-22 - pajamas 2008-03-22 - wanting to feel better 2008-03-21 - how to make myself happy, pt 2 2008-03-20 - the least I can do 2008-03-19 - my idiosyncrasies and strange thoughts 2008-03-19 - in a mood 2008-03-18 - waking up angry 2008-03-17 - grumpy 2008-03-17 - how to make myself happy, pt 1 2008-03-17 - the way I see beauty 2008-03-15 - bringing back the joy 2008-03-14 - here and now 2008-03-12 - awkward phase 2008-03-12 - another day, another depression 2008-03-11 - who am I? 2008-03-10 - peace, at last 2008-03-09 - luxurious life 2008-03-09 - letting go 2008-03-08 - maybe i'm better? 2008-03-07 - checking in once again 2008-03-07 - a new trend for me 2008-03-06 - definitely 2008-03-05 - making music 2008-03-05 - actions speak louder than words 2008-03-04 - apathy 2008-03-04 - good luck to all 2008-03-03 - the sweetest way possible 2008-03-02 - what to do? 2008-03-02 - girls and boys 2008-03-01 - my serious problem 2008-02-29 - under the wire 2008-02-29 - dreams, laundry, chaos, tears and laziness 2008-02-28 - ENTRY from 2/26/08 2008-02-26 - just love myself: the express elevator on my downward spiral 2008-02-25 - permission to be me 2008-02-25 - help me 2008-02-24 - dreams and fears 2008-02-23 - layers 2008-02-22 - needs and wants, and plans 2008-02-20 - other people's boyfriends, patience and more healing 2008-02-17 - another procrastination note 2008-02-16 - things to do 2008-02-16 - a massage, a comfort, and a possibility 2008-02-15 - if I don't... 2008-02-14 - things I like, and good things that happen 2008-02-13 - the issue of control 2008-02-13 - thanks for friends 2008-02-12 - peeling off the layers of limitation 2008-02-11 - waiting for Don 2008-02-11 - hidden beliefs and procrastination 2008-02-11 - all the help we can get 2008-02-09 - better yet? 2008-02-08 - women 2008-02-07 - calm before the storm 2008-02-06 - mostly shitty things 2008-02-05 - bummed out 2008-02-03 - fate on a bookshelf 2008-02-03 - life is looking up 2008-02-02 - revisiting, and recreating 2008-02-02 - small victories, reversed 2008-02-02 - small victories 2008-01-31 - -so tired I originally forgot to give this entry a title... 2008-01-31 - friends and the lessons they teach me 2008-01-31 - reprogramming and things to be excited about 2008-01-30 - out of this hole 2008-01-30 - rearranging 2008-01-30 - if I'd just go to bed when I should 2008-01-29 - observations, dreams, and waiting for a breakthrough 2008-01-27 - things I love, and that which I don't understand 2008-01-26 - the threads of rage 2008-01-25 - self-knowledge, self-reliance and freedom 2008-01-25 - insomnia 2008-01-24 - my day 2008-01-23 - keep dancing 2008-01-23 - like a scrub brush 2008-01-23 - another entry 2008-01-22 - having it all 2008-01-22 - bills, buzzwords and a tough job 2008-01-20 - f**k you 2008-01-19 - the ability to create 2008-01-19 - should have 2008-01-18 - guardian angel 2008-01-17 - 2 steps forward, 1 step back 2008-01-16 - stay tuned 2008-01-15 - pedestal 2008-01-14 - soulmate = soul shaker 2008-01-14 - free 2008-01-13 - jeans et al 2008-01-13 - how much i've grown 2008-01-12 - really 2008-01-12 - the world of triangles 2008-01-11 - not much 2008-01-09 - don't know how 2008-01-09 - revelations, true surrender, and a little judgment thrown in 2008-01-08 - love is not enough 2008-01-08 - more dreams 2008-01-07 - master class and the 8th grade 2008-01-07 - the best and the worst 2008-01-06 - the nasty ego 2008-01-06 - holes in my aura 2008-01-06 - good fortune and happenstance 2008-01-05 - you never know 2008-01-04 - little check-in 2008-01-04 - the hardest thing I've ever done 2008-01-03 - fur coat of fear and the number 2 2008-01-03 - ask and you shall receive 2008-01-02 - what to release, what to create 2008-01-02 - i'm just dedicated 2008-01-01 - the future: 2008 2007-12-31 - this too shall pass 2007-12-30 - judgements and intentions 2007-12-30 - life is amazing 2007-12-30 - end of the year in/activities 2007-12-29 - some things to remember 2007-12-29 - wake me in march 2007-12-29 - miscommunications 2007-12-28 - the feeling train 2007-12-26 - love and fear... again 2007-12-24 - higher degree of self-clarity 2007-12-23 - compassion for self 2007-12-23 - baby dreams 2007-12-23 - under orders of the wax lady 2007-12-22 - blessed mother punching pillows 2007-12-21 - pissed 2007-12-21 - soul searching and blah blah blah 2007-12-20 - end of the day 2007-12-20 - all for now 2007-12-19 - slow day 2007-12-19 - tired, chillin' and skinny 2007-12-19 - from 12/16- belated entry 2007-12-13 - early morning entry 2007-12-12 - long row to hoe 2007-12-12 - soul work 2007-12-11 - onward 2007-12-10 - what I see in myself 2007-12-09 - lists 2007-12-09 - profile changes and attitude changes 2007-12-08 - for now 2007-12-07 - a great opportunity 2007-12-07 - love or fear 2007-12-06 - internal and external 2007-12-05 - anger, cookies, pain 2007-12-05 - out of my head 2007-12-03 - support 2007-11-16 - long-awaited call from m 2007-11-11 - carrying on 2007-11-10 - adventurous day 2007-11-09 - abbreviations, stress, and more 2007-11-09 - judgement and mystery calls 2007-11-08 - ha ha 2007-11-07 - magical sweatshirts, too much sleeping and issues of trust 2007-11-06 - random surprises and disconnecting from the past 2007-11-05 - love and technology 2007-11-04 - cleaning and musing 2007-11-03 - doubt and movement 2007-11-02 - too much thinking 2007-11-01 - a little bit better 2007-11-01 - halloween update 2007-10-31 - crash! 2007-10-30 - different choices = better results 2007-10-16 - weekend with M 2007-10-12 - funky duck 2007-10-12 - food! 2007-10-10 - an update on most popular characters 2007-10-09 - fear, ex-wives, and food 2007-10-05 - squalor management 2007-10-05 - new and fresh 2007-10-03 - return 2007-01-06 - sick and tired 2007-01-03 - the new year, same neuroses 2006-12-29 - relationships, and things I hate. 2006-12-18 - checking in on a lazy day 2006-11-18 - making it official 2006-11-16 - checking in 2006-11-10 - dating 2006-11-01 - healing dreams 2006-10-24 - catching up 2006-10-23 - eeek 62 days 2006-08-22 - one man out, one man in 2006-08-20 - done 2006-08-10 - clearing things up 2006-07-22 - laundromat = hell 2006-07-20 - clarity 2006-07-16 - doing the right thing 2006-07-15 - down with love 2006-07-13 - blood sugar and online dating 2006-07-11 - insomnia, shopping, and muscle pain 2006-07-11 - tattletale 2006-07-10 - a glass of wine 2006-07-09 - commitment 2006-07-06 - healing is happening 2006-07-06 - fall in a hole 2006-07-02 - ready for a boyfriend 2006-06-28 - nothing new 2006-06-26 - rage 2006-06-24 - freedom 2006-06-20 - tv is saved 2006-06-18 - working 2006-06-15 - figuring it all out 2006-06-14 - i am the way i am 2006-06-13 - wtf 2006-06-12 - ugh 2006-06-09 - something to offer me 2006-06-08 - good visit 2006-06-05 - confusion intrusion 2006-05-31 - dreams, 2006-05-30 - job search in a too short dress and blistered feet 2006-05-29 - today's ponderings 2006-05-28 - the pattern 2006-05-27 - one small step for me 2006-05-26 - shame & a snub 2006-05-24 - it's not me! 2006-05-23 - different from last year 2006-05-16 - something very wrong 2006-05-16 - life for now 2006-05-12 - dream interpretation 2006-05-12 - dreams & a return 2006-05-11 - angel conference and forgiving myself 2006-05-10 - get a frickin' job! 2006-05-10 - he's just not that into me 2006-04-24 - gone for a spell 2006-04-24 - curious 2006-04-22 - ironed out 2006-04-22 - taking care of me 2006-04-21 - speculation 2006-04-19 - the end 2006-04-11 - money where his mouth is 2006-04-10 - love, duck 2006-04-08 - up to his old tricks 2006-04-05 - changin' 2006-03-29 - a good sport 2006-03-22 - i want to feel better! 2006-03-21 - get me to a nunnery 2006-03-20 - man in my bed 2006-03-17 - a day between us 2006-03-15 - folders 2006-03-14 - why? 2006-03-14 - must be done 2006-03-12 - kissing wisconsin 2006-03-11 - this and that 2006-03-03 - self-esteem 2006-03-03 - call from wisconsin 2006-02-23 - changing my attitude 2006-02-20 - drinkin' 2006-02-18 - keepin' on keepin on 2006-02-18 - up all night 2006-02-17 - blowouts and unconditional love 2006-02-07 - i'm getting a job 2006-02-06 - entry #288 2006-02-02 - tired 2006-01-30 - i am a nerd 2006-01-29 - jealous and pissed 2006-01-28 - sadness, entitlement, attitude...reunion 2006-01-26 - i've been tagged 2006-01-26 - a good person 2006-01-18 - 30 whole seconds 2006-01-17 - how's life? 2006-01-14 - did my part 2006-01-13 - a coma, a call, and a cleaning 2006-01-10 - i don't really know 2006-01-08 - some bitching, and a reclaimed sister 2006-01-07 - buzz 2006-01-05 - bitch of a day 2006-01-04 - some tears, and a book 2006-01-03 - suspicious smiley faces 2005-12-27 - less pain for me 2005-12-24 - (almost) 2005-12-24 - google 2005-12-23 - immobilized, in the same shirt 2005-12-22 - i'm a bum, and i hate my friends 2005-12-21 - oh, cb called 2005-12-20 - wouldn't it be nice? 2005-12-18 - forgive me 2005-11-30 - like sugar? 2005-11-29 - another bad date 2005-11-28 - relationships 2005-11-27 - space 2005-11-22 - into me 2005-11-16 - i can feel my face 2005-11-15 - oxytocin 2005-11-15 - little hurts, great life 2005-11-14 - interesting and hurtful, among other things 2005-11-13 - full of shit 2005-11-13 - my own personal drama 2005-11-12 - pit of despair 2005-11-12 - paper or plastic? 2005-11-11 - settled 2005-11-11 - therapy? 2005-11-11 - who am I trying to fool? 2005-11-10 - lost my patience 2005-11-10 - second best 2005-11-08 - cuteboy 2005-11-03 - slightly sick 2005-11-01 - halloween, or aleda day? 2005-10-29 - one hopes... 2005-10-29 - cuteboy 2005-10-28 - new someone 2005-10-26 - still here 2005-10-20 - aleda and emily 2005-10-18 - patterns, and a list 2005-10-18 - big loser 2005-10-15 - 10 years ago... 2005-10-15 - hole in my tooth 2005-10-08 - doozy of a day, louie's bad behavior 2005-10-07 - never again 2005-10-07 - insane 2005-10-06 - better listeners 2005-10-06 - mistakes i have made 2005-10-06 - busy day 2005-10-05 - 45% 2005-10-03 - dramatic visit coming up 2005-10-02 - money money money stress 2005-10-01 - longings and feelings 2005-09-21 - tara reid 2005-09-21 - need advice, please 2005-09-18 - things accomplished, and some thoughts 2005-09-17 - inspired 2005-09-15 - support 2005-09-14 - yay for me 2005-09-11 - anger 2005-09-11 - nothing to complain about 2005-09-10 - i'm back 2005-08-28 - disappointing men 2005-08-24 - responses 2005-08-22 - pain 2005-08-21 - pudgy 2005-08-21 - accomplished 2005-08-17 - crotch-biters 2005-08-16 - dedication 2005-08-16 - slightly sober 2005-08-16 - what would Diary do? 2005-08-15 - bitchin' 2005-08-14 - big plan, a pregnancy, and goals 2005-08-13 - ****** 2005-08-12 - keep moving 2005-08-12 - believe it or not 2005-08-10 - #6 2005-08-09 - 6 things 2005-08-08 - teeth 2005-08-07 - old stuff coming up 2005-08-06 - loves me, loves me not 2005-08-06 - dreams & finances 2005-08-06 - bugs xan anthony michael hall 2005-08-04 - love quilt 2005-08-02 - he loves me for my mind 2005-08-02 - a review 2005-08-01 - frosting 2005-07-31 - my own business 2005-07-30 - meditation? 2005-07-25 - except you 2005-07-12 - life as i know it 2005-05-19 - celery 2005-05-05 - dumb argument = yuck 2005-04-25 - grumpy spring 2005-04-24 - triangles 2005-04-22 - replaced? or multiplied? 2005-04-06 - catch-up 2005-03-29 - back again 2005-02-18 - not chosen? 2005-02-03 - very serious 2005-01-31 - rose & hammer 2005-01-28 - sugar crash.... and the downward spiral that goes with it 2005-01-26 - anxiety yet again... 2005-01-25 - big business 2005-01-19 - down in the polls 2005-01-13 - a scary night at the bar 2005-01-12 - evil me 2005-01-11 - dreams 2005-01-11 - my sex update 2004-11-23 - exciting 2004-11-18 - staying afloat? 2004-11-17 - exhaustion, irritation, confusion 2004-11-17 - good night 2004-11-16 - work changes and my embarrassing sickness 2004-11-12 - not so hot 2004-11-10 - fat, men, libido 2004-11-09 - dry spell 2004-11-02 - good to be a woman 2004-10-30 - the party 2004-10-27 - hard to get along with 2004-10-27 - beautiful happy self 2004-10-18 - negativity 2004-10-15 - the sex thing 2004-10-07 - games and more games 2004-10-02 - Psycho again 2004-10-01 - making up 2004-09-30 - need a break 2004-09-29 - still grieving 2004-09-28 - haitus 2004-09-27 - the long and the short 2004-09-24 - aaaaah 2004-09-23 - you just never know 2004-09-21 - my dad 2004-09-16 - i don't care 2004-09-12 - a bust 2004-09-09 - a peppy thursday 2004-09-06 - i am just writing what's in my head 2004-09-01 - checking in 2004-08-30 - it 2004-08-24 - wise words 2004-08-23 - mindfuck 2004-08-20 - too much is just too much 2004-08-19 - sneaky entry 2004-08-18 - reminders 2004-08-16 - little monster 2004-08-12 - positive note 2004-08-09 - duck problem and blueberry velocity 2004-08-06 - lesson 2004-08-03 - inner critic strikes again 2004-08-02 - weekend pt 1 2004-07-28 - overcommunicator 2004-07-27 - feeding my head 2004-07-26 - bitching/musing 2004-07-21 - the meeting 2004-07-16 - this and that 2004-07-14 - nothin much 2004-07-13 - inspiration 2004-07-12 - bound 2004-07-08 - yuck 2004-07-08 - knife in the heart and pseudo intercourse 2004-07-07 - what the hell 2004-06-16 - as predicted 2004-06-14 - riding the tiger of impossible love 2004-06-10 - severe denial, a confession, and hope 2004-06-07 - men management 2004-06-04 - ammunition 2004-06-03 - suckrut 2004-05-28 - in demand 2004-05-27 - confidence machine 2004-05-26 - heartache 2004-05-26 - naivete 2004-05-25 - sucker punched 2004-05-21 - ducks and chickens cannot be friends 2004-05-20 - 12 monkeys 2004-05-20 - downward hormonal spiral 2004-05-19 - the decline of my civilization 2004-05-18 - chemistry? 2004-05-17 - the latest episode 2004-05-14 - interview #2 2004-05-14 - mr. baddate 2004-05-13 - internet date #1 2004-05-12 - bpm (bipolar maniac) 2004-05-11 - ruined 2004-05-10 - bad behavior 2004-05-07 - life...continued 2004-05-05 - the positives 2004-05-04 - courage and vulnerability 2004-05-04 - my best 2004-05-03 - the answer 2004-04-30 - d-day is tomorrow! 2004-04-29 - countdown 2004-04-26 - suspense 2004-04-23 - snail snot 2004-04-19 - "friends" 2004-04-16 - enter ex, stage right 2004-04-15 - seeds 2004-04-12 - think 2004-04-09 - inner critic 2004-04-08 - h-day 2004-04-07 - fish reject 2004-04-07 - scenario #2 2004-04-06 - hamster wheel 2004-04-05 - cosmic joke 2004-04-02 - flaming triceps 2004-04-02 - scenario #1 2004-04-01 - smells good 2004-03-31 - hopeful vs. hopeless 2004-03-30 - life-is-normal 2004-03-29 - rollercoaster 2004-03-26 - holing up 2004-03-25 - reservoir dogs 2004-03-25 - scarcity model 2004-03-22 - getting what i need 2004-03-19 - lonely 2004-03-19 - honesty 2004-03-18 - coma 2004-03-16 - functioning 2004-03-15 - 48 days 2004-03-09 - EXCITEMENT 2004-03-08 - distance, hope, and $ 2004-03-05 - here again 2004-03-04 - CF ex-sighting not exciting 2004-03-04 - pain and sadness 2004-03-03 - shaky 2004-03-03 - out of my element 2004-03-02 - language of love 2004-03-01 - mysterious 2004-03-01 - reeling (70%) 2004-02-27 - drifting, eating, holding 2004-02-26 - waiting to inhale 2004-02-25 - chasms 2004-02-11 - showdown 2004-02-10 - CF 2004-02-09 - the ex 2004-02-06 - peaks and valleys 2004-02-06 - snoop-oops 2004-02-05 - i'm tired 2004-02-03 - subtle shift 2004-02-03 - boundaries 2004-02-02 - screwed 2004-02-02 - if the buddha joined fight club 2004-01-30 - this entry actually written by my snarky, evil twin 2004-01-30 - Sybil 2004-01-29 - annoyance and the muffin 2004-01-29 - dreams and burning buildings 2004-01-28 - direction 2004-01-28 - wandering eye 2004-01-27 - the resume is submitted! 2004-01-26 - horse-like 2004-01-23 - mojo 2004-01-23 - anxiety 2004-01-22 - short and boring 2004-01-22 - choices 2004-01-21 - the mature and adult thing to do 2004-01-21 - fragile 2004-01-16 - new world order 2004-01-15 - save the planet 2004-01-15 - lies, continued 2004-01-14 - lies 2004-01-13 - the evidence 2004-01-09 - the ladder 2004-01-09 - story of abuse 2004-01-08 - further blathering 2004-01-08 - the magic wand 2004-01-07 - should I allow my head to sprout a gray hair? 2004-01-06 - complaining again 2004-01-04 - embrace 2004-01-03 - the almost-office affair 2004-01-02 - going slow 2004-01-01 - emotional glop 2003-12-31 - year in review 2003-12-30 - Wise Woman 2003-12-30 - 15 again 2003-12-23 - beginning
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