Archives

2020-03-12 - nice to see you
2020-03-11 - What ever happened to .......?
2015-06-14 - the neighborhood
2015-06-12 - money and health
2015-06-11 - angry narwals
2014-12-09 - dumping trash, sorry
2014-12-05 - addicted to the internet
2014-09-13 - -
2014-09-05 - work?
2014-08-17 - sugar and shit
2014-08-08 - medical
2014-07-13 - dogshit
2014-07-13 - berries and quitting etc
2014-07-09 - make love by laughing
2014-07-09 - make love by laughing
2014-06-17 - things I miss, things I don't
2014-06-09 - behind
2013-12-07 - be
2013-12-01 - dreams of M in Basel
2013-11-26 - I have a vehicle, and I have not lost 10 pounds
2013-11-11 - just diaryland
2013-11-02 - friends and family
2013-10-22 - ugh. contact from Alphie
2013-10-13 - kind of hopeless
2013-10-07 - nutrition, work, and (ex) friendship...
2013-09-23 - new practitioner
2013-09-14 - the wedding dream
2013-09-08 - going back 10 years
2013-09-07 - wedding bell blues and thinking about work
2013-08-29 - beginning at the gym... again...
2013-08-27 - dreams of M, and overweight
2013-08-24 - terse family situation
2013-07-07 - dreams, and real-life mice
2013-07-05 - another cleanse
2013-07-02 - an overwhelming day
2013-07-02 - the lotus dream
2013-07-02 - I hate her.
2013-07-01 - handful of chocolate chips and a mushy brain
2013-06-22 - other peoples' relationships
2013-06-12 - puffer fish and decapitation
2013-06-11 - morning reading, babies
2013-06-10 - shlub
2013-03-13 - a dream about Grace
2013-03-11 - post vacation
2013-03-04 - a luscious life
2013-02-13 - sugar update and other things
2013-02-07 - has it been 6 days already?
2013-01-31 - don't want the same old life
2013-01-26 - I don't wanna go anywhere!
2013-01-24 - getting back on the health horse
2013-01-19 - no sun, and I'm broke
2013-01-19 - no sun, and I'm broke
2013-01-07 - a day of exercise, and attempted triangulation
2013-01-07 - when do you get too old to play?
2013-01-05 - a new year 2013
2013-01-02 - um, apologies...
2012-11-27 - random socializing and whatnot
2012-11-05 - silkie
2012-10-21 - long day... still more to go
2012-10-21 - where I am with Thomas and Gia
2012-10-19 - tripping n blaming
2012-10-18 - what he took
2012-10-10 - crap on a stick
2012-10-10 - letters, and letters, and letters.
2012-10-04 - in the old neighborhood
2012-10-03 - weird
2012-10-02 - post-move jello brain
2012-10-01 - I've moved out
2012-09-16 - help with packing
2012-09-09 - health concerns and starting to pack
2012-08-26 - quick update
2012-08-10 - this is how the days go
2012-08-09 - nostalgia and other happenings
2012-08-06 - not in that place
2012-07-23 - some thoughts about moving
2012-07-17 - tricky lunch
2012-07-17 - exercise is good for me
2012-07-12 - dancing days
2012-07-10 - what can I change today??
2012-07-10 - I want to run away
2012-07-09 - lake visit and needing sleep
2012-06-22 - tired...
2012-06-17 - -
2012-06-09 - here again
2012-05-30 - dreams of parasites oh my
2012-05-21 - bad patterns
2012-05-21 - in love with life...
2012-04-30 - see how it goes
2012-05-02 - a dream
2012-04-20 - one step at a time
2012-04-18 - baby steps
2012-04-14 - clarity, and something to look forward to!
2012-04-12 - stretching and crying
2012-04-10 - weekend with Ginny who may possibly be an alcoholic??
2012-04-05 - due to the high cost of butter...
2012-04-04 - pinched nerve and back in action
2012-04-03 - home, not doing much
2012-04-01 - stood up, days off, dinner party
2012-03-28 - anger at Alphie, the selfish manipulative passive aggressive cocksucker
2012-03-26 - more than fair isn't fair
2012-03-25 - day at home and call with Emily
2012-03-23 - tummy roll and more
2012-03-21 - somebody's looking out
2012-03-20 - more Alphie drama; some hurtful words
2012-03-19 - my weekend
2012-03-15 - making progress
2012-03-13 - back on my pony
2012-03-12 - where have I been
2012-02-15 - lazy valentine's day, old hurts and trying to move on
2012-02-13 - who knows
2012-02-11 - waiting for a client
2012-02-10 - lil' update on all things physical, mental and emotional
2012-02-06 - day of chores and flexibility
2012-02-05 - irony, phone calls and more cleaning
2012-02-04 - cleaning and cooking and shopping!
2012-01-31 - doctors, dates and desires
2012-01-20 - keeping it together
2012-01-14 - holidays, travel and dating
2011-12-21 - letting people be mad at me
2011-12-20 - dreams and seeing Pam
2011-12-14 - 6 pounds and a bruised knee!
2011-12-10 - crisis
2011-12-10 - me again
2011-12-07 - some kind of exercise every day
2011-12-04 - from the depths of my pornographic mind...
2011-11-28 - exhaustion, exercise and a new diet
2011-11-25 - finally did a bit and sweet text from Will
2011-11-21 - shutting the door on M
2011-11-20 - my week away
2011-11-13 - timing, call from William
2011-11-12 - from quivering pile of goo to victory
2011-11-11 - fantasy hookup and wanting my own space
2011-11-10 - in the wrong profession
2011-11-09 - a breakthrough of sorts
2011-11-07 - sticking together, and finding support
2011-11-06 - alive another day
2011-11-05 - this fucking hurts
2011-11-05 - discovering mistakes and a night out
2011-11-03 - truly miserable
2011-11-02 - overwhelm, money, and more overwhelm
2011-11-01 - work and quitting and sickness oh my
2011-10-31 - new laptop
2011-10-29 - anyway...
2011-10-28 - protecting the child part and delicious desserts
2011-10-27 - can't reach the pedals
2011-10-24 - believing in the impossible
2011-10-24 - does it have to be hard?
2011-10-22 - Gail's will and HSC
2011-10-22 - plans in the making
2011-10-22 - sick for the weekend
2011-10-20 - Emily's hamster wheel and more
2011-10-20 - dodged them bullets
2011-10-17 - so be it
2011-10-12 - tim and pam situation and family time
2011-10-11 - friends' weird behavior...
2011-10-09 - confessions of a crush
2011-10-06 - -
2011-09-29 - quit today?
2011-09-28 - just numb
2011-09-26 - talk with Gia, recap of the week
2011-09-21 - ... and a funeral
2011-09-15 - excessiveness and yoga...
2011-09-08 - 18 days later...
2011-08-21 - home again... back to work
2011-08-18 - lack of mirth
2011-08-11 - really want to change
2011-08-03 - sigh and double sigh
2011-07-31 - irony and medium wistfulness
2011-07-30 - a place for everything
2011-07-29 - day with Marva, Emily, and reset
2011-07-28 - one step at a time, again
2011-07-22 - shame
2011-07-16 - the week I've had
2011-07-11 - hard feedback from a friend
2011-07-09 - lots of naps, dream of G
2011-07-08 - a day off, bad plumbing
2011-07-07 - yes, I did that bad thing
2011-06-24 - lots of truths
2011-06-23 - my best, again
2011-06-22 - hopefully...
2011-06-20 - made it through the weekend
2011-06-15 - the pervasive feeling of enmeshment
2011-06-07 - wanting truly clean breaks
2011-06-05 - HELLo
2011-06-04 - health stuff slowing me down
2011-06-01 - everybody knows everybody
2011-05-31 - a quick one
2011-05-25 - grumbles and such
2011-05-25 - better man in my future
2011-05-23 - errands and work on a Sunday, oh my
2011-05-21 - bad travel decisions and dinner with the maids
2011-05-20 - going to work
2011-05-19 - leave it for tomorrow
2011-05-18 - all that lies ahead
2011-05-16 - back to the grind
2011-05-10 - 6 exhausting days, but mostly good news
2011-05-04 - yoga and beauty
2011-05-01 - reception
2011-04-28 - days before travel
2011-04-26 - huge relief
2011-04-21 - day three
2011-04-18 - day one
2011-04-17 - productive and good
2011-04-16 - better insurance
2011-04-14 - don't be a shitbird
2011-04-12 - pt job blues
2011-04-11 - busy weekend, long day
2011-04-09 - parties and shit
2011-04-07 - visiting, humiliation, school, and other things
2011-04-01 - darkly dreaming
2011-03-31 - onward
2011-03-30 - semblance of rest
2011-03-29 - ready for a change
2011-03-27 - a weekend of work
2011-03-25 - slow... and Shelby
2011-03-24 - dance more
2011-03-22 - refreshed... -looking, anyway
2011-03-20 - start fresh
2011-03-16 - last day of vacation and the kindness of strangers
2011-03-14 - cowering, or moving...
2011-03-11 - beginning of vacation
2011-03-06 - so attached
2011-03-04 - detoxing, I think...
2011-02-28 - noticing about myself
2011-02-26 - breakdown of my plan before vacation...
2011-02-23 - more, and more
2011-02-21 - a little negativity with your tea?
2011-02-20 - alligators and baby rams
2011-02-19 - home I go
2011-02-18 - day with Steffy
2011-02-16 - another all-nigher
2011-02-15 - drag
2011-02-14 - wedding bitches
2011-02-14 - vday thoughts
2011-02-12 - the story today
2011-02-10 - ethics, food, and other stuff
2011-02-08 - not quite right...
2011-02-05 - one day at a time
2011-02-04 - anxiety and crumbling
2011-02-03 - still digging, with teaspoon
2011-02-01 - out of the house
2011-01-30 - waterslide race and dancing with Smitten
2011-01-26 - Shelby, fasting, dating, and ugh
2011-01-24 - cleaning
2011-01-22 - the relationship measuring stick, et al
2011-01-18 - bridesmaid blues
2011-01-16 - another update
2011-01-04 - I am a bridesmaid
2011-01-02 - new year 2011
2010-12-29 - tired holiday
2010-12-27 - still stressed
2010-12-26 - grieve it and leave it
2010-12-22 - I need rest
2010-12-21 - dizzy spells and date with G
2010-12-07 - girls and boys and nachos
2010-12-06 - blah entry
2010-11-30 - find another way
2010-11-30 - mundane, disgusted, despondent... and more
2010-11-29 - day at home
2010-11-28 - things I haven't done
2010-11-25 - indulgence
2010-11-24 - holiday with family
2010-11-21 - surrender to the unknown
2010-11-18 - feelings about my health
2010-11-17 - no middle setting
2010-11-15 - maybe that's it
2010-11-13 - Alphie/Grace news and some morning musings
2010-11-12 - don't know how to feel
2010-11-11 - the obsessive type
2010-11-09 - crushing on G
2010-11-07 - time with G
2010-11-03 - expanding my worldview
2010-11-01 - back in the saddle
2010-10-31 - memory portals, et al
2010-10-30 - not a straight talker
2010-10-28 - a weird day at the dentist
2010-10-26 - time to cut it
2010-10-25 - knowing more than I think I do
2010-10-20 - working into a frenzy...
2010-10-12 - past few days...
2010-10-09 - bus and train
2010-10-08 - afternoon off
2010-10-05 - weird dreams, false alarm at work, stomachache
2010-10-04 - ladies' day
2010-10-03 - possibilities are endless on this day off...
2010-10-02 - the girl who can't get laid, part 936
2010-10-01 - crazy duck
2010-09-30 - september 30th
2010-09-28 - up early, on the go
2010-09-27 - "second date" with G
2010-09-26 - a day for me, a night with G
2010-09-24 - no sex, cont.
2010-09-23 - two boyfriends, and rest
2010-09-23 - virginity!
2010-09-21 - you won't believe it!
2010-09-15 - dating difficulties... all over!
2010-09-13 - weekend and great talk with G
2010-09-12 - long entry- everything I want
2010-09-02 - travel, work, secrets, dating
2010-08-31 - at the parents'
2010-08-25 - traveling, school, and boys
2010-08-22 - lion and rhinoceros on a Sunday
2010-08-21 - chillin' and online dating
2010-08-19 - mildly surprised
2010-08-18 - what can I say... I can say this
2010-08-17 - same stupid shit, but no judgment about it
2010-08-17 - tightrope of miserability
2010-08-14 - forgetful puppy and rest and renewal
2010-08-13 - cute comments, not impressed
2010-08-12 - happy enough
2010-08-11 - if you're worried
2010-08-10 - the sleep connection
2010-08-08 - wrapping up a great weekend... other thoughts
2010-08-07 - determined not to be miserable
2010-08-07 - judgments and apologies
2010-08-06 - the principle of the thing
2010-08-05 - dreams in august
2010-08-05 - restraining myself from old patterns...
2010-08-04 - just how I feel
2010-08-03 - sad and angry
2010-08-02 - additional
2010-08-01 - intimacy
2010-07-30 - love to me
2010-07-29 - triangulation, again
2010-07-24 - 8 days
2010-07-15 - good, and bad
2010-07-15 - brief connection with Roc
2010-07-13 - not a peep
2010-07-09 - flight, in dreams and real life
2010-07-08 - the bi question
2010-07-07 - hard edges
2010-07-04 - a weekend of unexpecteds...
2010-07-02 - friends I don't wanna see
2010-07-01 - two blowables
2010-06-30 - up-too-late, sleep-too-late
2010-06-29 - W emails and stomach pains
2010-06-29 - a little work on a hot summer day
2010-06-27 - wedding and more
2010-06-26 - a little bit down
2010-06-26 - W, Don, Shelby and Zeke
2010-06-24 - day off
2010-06-23 - pandora and more
2010-06-17 - w resurfaces and leaving work early
2010-06-16 - potential blowjobs, divorce et al
2010-06-15 - my own inadequacies
2010-06-15 - time with Marva
2010-06-14 - oy
2010-06-12 - helping or hurting
2010-06-11 - sick?
2010-06-10 - two busy weekends and breaking up
2010-05-24 - surprises- don't like 'em
2010-05-23 - your opinion
2010-05-23 - dinner and a movie
2010-05-20 - not feelin' so hot...
2010-05-20 - two vulnerable emails
2010-05-19 - the truth of it, via serena
2010-05-19 - communications and money
2010-05-18 - petra spills the beans
2010-05-17 - staying away from the rabbit hole
2010-05-17 - am I ever gonna heal?
2010-05-14 - killer whale and turtle
2010-05-13 - last few days... Shelby et al
2010-05-07 - gross and inappropriate
2010-05-06 - skeeved
2010-05-06 - waxin', and not going back
2010-05-05 - being me
2010-05-04 - what the hell
2010-05-02 - trying to get through
2010-05-01 - big boy
2010-04-27 - Universe, take care of me!
2010-04-27 - long days, and too much flirting
2010-04-23 - a boundary with Paul
2010-04-22 - holding it together
2010-04-16 - crazy
2010-04-15 - misunderstood
2010-04-14 - staying active
2010-04-13 - work and money and nasty sisters
2010-04-10 - more than a mortal woman should do
2010-04-09 - busy days
2010-04-07 - gifts
2010-04-05 - accomplishments, dreams and my pushup
2010-04-05 - irritations and grocery shopping
2010-04-03 - annoyance and advice
2010-04-02 - waiting for joy
2010-04-02 - more dreams of Shana and Bruce
2010-04-02 - a bit closer
2010-04-01 - less sleep, tricky phone calls, and bad tv
2010-03-31 - purging and such
2010-03-30 - 30th of march
2010-03-30 - time to myself
2010-03-29 - plans with Zeke
2010-03-29 - week with Gia
2010-03-23 - more cleaning blah blah blah
2010-03-21 - to the max
2010-03-21 - more about Zeke
2010-03-20 - Zeke and wonderland
2010-03-18 - where to go from here?
2010-03-16 - under wraps
2010-03-15 - television
2010-03-15 - undependable
2010-03-15 - contributing
2010-03-14 - working my ass off
2010-03-12 - food and dance
2010-03-12 - letting go of the attachment to being heard
2010-03-11 - no contemporaries
2010-03-11 - Smitten, John, etc - blah
2010-03-10 - talk with John, and all I know
2010-03-09 - presumption
2010-03-08 - procrastinating and cleaning cupboards
2010-03-07 - small world, awkward
2010-03-07 - woke up shaking
2010-03-06 - longing
2010-03-05 - another goal
2010-03-04 - learning from each other
2010-03-03 - triangles and enmeshments
2010-03-02 - transitions
2010-03-01 - chill out
2010-02-28 - she lent me a tube top
2010-02-27 - on my way
2010-02-27 - rambling catch up...
2010-02-26 - sticking to my guns
2010-02-24 - successes of today
2010-02-23 - not terribly interested
2010-02-21 - unsettling emails, and choosing inner peace
2010-02-20 - the very very very long day- cross your fingers
2010-02-18 - if I could just sleep
2010-02-17 - pancakes and fish
2010-02-15 - valentine recap
2010-02-14 - using the day to love myself
2010-02-13 - angry - at what?
2010-02-12 - foundation
2010-02-11 - penii and more
2010-02-07 - h and t
2010-02-07 - somewhere worthwhile
2010-02-05 - mixture of feelings
2010-02-03 - three ways I'm okay about Thursday
2010-02-01 - unraveling
2010-01-31 - horse to water
2010-01-31 - Stacey and Kelly, and dreams about mom
2010-01-30 - the boss
2010-01-29 - so it goes
2010-01-29 - always something
2010-01-27 - blah blah blah
2010-01-24 - two things
2010-01-23 - undercurrent of my insecurity...
2010-01-21 - above and beyond
2010-01-18 - dinner date with Shelby
2010-01-17 - overthinking
2010-01-15 - thought it was thursday
2010-01-14 - expectations
2010-01-12 - day of class
2010-01-10 - the unexpected
2010-01-08 - bit off more than I could chew
2010-01-08 - packing, procrastinating
2010-01-07 - catch 22
2010-01-06 - the wedding dream
2010-01-05 - catching up and getting ready
2010-01-05 - Ex and home
2010-01-04 - who I'd like to be
2010-01-03 - the frog dream
2010-01-01 - the party and year in review
2009-12-31 - never again!
2009-12-31 - fear, anger, sadness and joy
2009-12-29 - people I didn't see
2009-12-29 - Smitten and chocolates
2009-12-25 - work for 2010
2009-12-22 - slow...
2009-12-22 - run-in with Luke
2009-12-21 - the problem with Shelby... not really a problem
2009-12-21 - shattering
2009-12-20 - number twoooo for today
2009-12-19 - procrastinating on a saturday
2009-12-18 - day with the girls, and future plans
2009-12-17 - day with Emily, conversations with Gail, and perhaps a phone call from M?
2009-12-16 - here I go
2009-12-15 - gift horse
2009-12-14 - finances and more
2009-12-10 - call, caretaking, and boundaries
2009-12-09 - people who piss me off
2009-12-09 - a night with Shelby, et al
2009-12-06 - chick weekend etc
2009-12-03 - space and a bright future
2009-12-02 - operation feng shui
2009-12-02 - no deep end for me
2009-12-01 - confusion, hello
2009-11-30 - some thoughts on 11/30/09
2009-11-30 - too old
2009-11-27 - fuckface relative
2009-11-27 - illuminations on exes
2009-11-26 - "over there" and "over here"
2009-11-25 - visiting the parents
2009-11-23 - the revolving door of karma
2009-11-21 - conversation with Shelby
2009-11-19 - negative, positive, positive, negative
2009-11-19 - curve ball
2009-11-18 - thanksgiving plans, things are changing all the time
2009-11-17 - blah. and blah.
2009-11-16 - easier said than done
2009-11-14 - flakeyville and trainwrecks
2009-11-12 - irks and gratitudes
2009-11-09 - adventures with Shelby
2009-11-07 - spark
2009-11-07 - no downtime, no write!
2009-11-03 - itty bitty entry
2009-10-30 - delayed and intact
2009-10-25 - eyes wide open
2009-10-18 - no R
2009-10-13 - I deserve better
2009-10-13 - life now
2009-10-10 - metaphor
2009-10-08 - difficult 2 yr?!
2009-10-05 - the comma-less entry
2009-10-02 - lounging around
2009-09-30 - sabotage and hope
2009-09-29 - dizzy
2009-09-25 - indulgence
2009-09-24 - Smitten email; Alphie conversation
2009-09-23 - breaking up pt2
2009-09-21 - no energy, sorry
2009-09-18 - tears, and a letter to W
2009-09-15 - this morning's dreams
2009-09-14 - i am angry!!!!
2009-09-14 - gobs and gobs of truth
2009-09-12 - worry?
2009-09-11 - signs
2009-09-11 - self-pity and anger, plain and simple
2009-09-07 - at the lake
2009-09-04 - breaking a habit
2009-09-03 - sad
2009-09-03 - out with Capricorn
2009-09-02 - man faucet
2009-09-01 - late night decisions, etc.
2009-09-01 - stomachache
2009-08-31 - weak
2009-08-30 - date with Gemini
2009-08-28 - new numbers and a crush
2009-08-26 - words vs. actions
2009-08-25 - STC....
2009-08-24 - not good for me
2009-08-21 - today's thoughts
2009-08-18 - occasional bad decisions
2009-08-17 - couple of nice things, and a decision about Smitten
2009-08-15 - memorials and ignoring
2009-08-13 - rough day for everyone
2009-08-12 - pat on the back
2009-08-11 - not sure
2009-08-10 - drama from hometown
2009-08-09 - untangled
2009-08-08 - breaking up
2009-08-07 - goodnight baby
2009-08-06 - cosmic thing
2009-08-04 - cheeseburger
2009-08-01 - bad news from home
2009-07-31 - embarrassing
2009-07-29 - night with the girls
2009-07-29 - crabby, ticking off the Smitten list
2009-07-28 - the usual patterns, and a dream about M
2009-07-27 - kissed, pissed, missed.....
2009-07-24 - pulled back in
2009-07-23 - slightly unsettled
2009-07-20 - catching up on the weekend
2009-07-16 - iceberg of an idea
2009-07-15 - shame spiral
2009-07-14 - when I least expect it...
2009-07-13 - oh Mickey, you're so.... drunk
2009-07-12 - "the way he looks" fears revealed
2009-07-11 - late-night thoughts
2009-07-10 - remaining myself
2009-07-09 - reassessment
2009-07-08 - kisstery solved
2009-07-07 - describing a monday on a tuesday
2009-07-06 - good notes and an invitation
2009-07-06 - someone who could hold me (long entry)
2009-07-03 - a little of that
2009-07-02 - mixed messages
2009-07-01 - burst of responsibility and a surprise guest
2009-06-30 - disappointing dream, etc.
2009-06-29 - three men
2009-06-28 - good to have a friend
2009-06-26 - such a thing
2009-06-26 - job app and the disappearance of Marva
2009-06-24 - sleepover
2009-06-23 - my morass, and judgments
2009-06-22 - one day at a time
2009-06-20 - back from the lake
2009-06-18 - interact with life
2009-06-17 - up for review
2009-06-14 - it's true
2009-06-12 - reasonably mended
2009-06-11 - confession
2009-06-10 - tech support
2009-06-08 - strange, but normal
2009-06-05 - tired
2009-06-04 - slippery types
2009-06-04 - last day at the old homestead
2009-06-03 - secret?
2009-06-02 - the best I can do
2009-06-02 - am I missing something?
2009-06-01 - seeds et al
2009-05-30 - angriest entry ever? and a sweet spot
2009-05-27 - duck and the magic tea
2009-05-27 - he's back...
2009-05-25 - productivity and getting rid of the hassles...
2009-05-24 - broken through
2009-05-23 - where is my self love?
2009-05-22 - i'm a girl
2009-05-22 - so much I can stand
2009-05-20 - at peace (wishing)
2009-05-20 - things have changed
2009-05-19 - that is that
2009-05-18 - how do you stop?
2009-05-17 - touched my heart
2009-05-16 - crazy day
2009-05-16 - irritations
2009-05-15 - glad, mad
2009-05-14 - baby in the house
2009-05-13 - dirt, men and a visitor
2009-05-12 - eyebrows and more
2009-05-12 - surprise correspondences and too much anger
2009-05-12 - slightly unmasculine healer-type
2009-05-08 - frustrated
2009-05-06 - twisted
2009-05-05 - short entry...
2009-05-04 - greetings from the sleepless girl
2009-05-01 - bring me joy
2009-04-30 - giving up
2009-04-29 - starving for connection
2009-04-27 - right or wrong
2009-04-24 - sleep pudding
2009-04-23 - shana and bruce
2009-04-23 - working on anger
2009-04-21 - unfashionable me
2009-04-20 - depressed much?
2009-04-20 - my crumbling crumble
2009-04-19 - angry and sarcastic
2009-04-18 - edgy me
2009-04-17 - tattling, texting, and tea
2009-04-15 - start all over again
2009-04-14 - if/when
2009-04-13 - assumptions and reflections
2009-04-13 - discharging the YUCK
2009-04-12 - keeping the ball rolling
2009-04-11 - the kissing question
2009-04-10 - class, photos, and forgiveness
2009-04-08 - airport entry
2009-04-08 - back spasms
2009-04-07 - counting my blessings
2009-04-06 - Jerry & Smitten
2009-04-05 - HUGE realization and bitchin' about men
2009-04-03 - not the only pea
2009-04-01 - giddy and smitten
2009-03-31 - and so it goes
2009-03-30 - taxes.... done!
2009-03-29 - trying to be positive
2009-03-28 - a day flies by
2009-03-27 - one of those days
2009-03-26 - a tiny dent,
2009-03-25 - call from Smitten
2009-03-25 - i need a miracle
2009-03-24 - all I can do
2009-03-23 - news from Smitten
2009-03-22 - on the 22nd day of march
2009-03-21 - so long
2009-03-20 - a lot of work
2009-03-19 - dog bites and therapy and texts, oh my
2009-03-19 - things to be depressed about, and more
2009-03-17 - lazy day
2009-03-17 - an exciting way to begin a tuesday
2009-03-16 - keep moving
2009-03-15 - slim pickins'
2009-03-14 - lack of entitlement, complaints about food
2009-03-10 - soup mission: success
2009-03-10 - venus in retrograde, and my six happies
2009-03-09 - zombies and such
2009-03-07 - health and men
2009-03-06 - quick entry
2009-03-05 - catch-up on chaotic wednesday
2009-03-03 - the glory of sleep
2009-03-02 - i'm pissed today!
2009-03-01 - good for me
2009-02-28 - wishes and do-overs
2009-02-27 - more things to do
2009-02-26 - compulsive
2009-02-25 - beebonky
2009-02-25 - two and six
2009-02-24 - text and a steak
2009-02-24 - not very productive
2009-02-24 - lots of shopping and a word about sarcasm
2009-02-23 - terrified obsessive freak
2009-02-22 - sick Smitten
2009-02-21 - a word about love
2009-02-20 - holding back
2009-02-20 - catching up in the airport
2009-02-18 - dream of Alphie
2009-02-16 - a circle of protection
2009-02-15 - climbing with M
2009-02-14 - my valentine day
2009-02-13 - highs and lows
2009-02-12 - a reasonably good system
2009-02-11 - after a long hard season
2009-02-11 - the Smitten mystery continues
2009-02-10 - a definite improvement
2009-02-09 - disappearing ones and the death of my vibrator
2009-02-08 - the complexities of Smitten
2009-02-07 - life and acupuncture
2009-02-06 - it will be okay
2009-02-06 - hangin' with the girls, movies, and more
2009-02-04 - theories and gratitude
2009-02-03 - lazy as hell with no apologies
2009-02-02 - penguin of the house
2009-02-02 - dodged a bullet, once again
2009-01-30 - rejection: an exploration
2009-01-29 - grief
2009-01-28 - if you speak french to a skunk...
2009-01-27 - a good lesson
2009-01-27 - it's official
2009-01-26 - day off
2009-01-26 - going away party
2009-01-24 - surprise, surprise
2009-01-23 - why I hate houseguests
2009-01-23 - I am an idiot; a new kind of insomnia
2009-01-21 - the risk of love
2009-01-20 - hope, and a waste of time
2009-01-19 - the desire to avoid future disasters
2009-01-16 - barking up all the wrong trees
2009-01-14 - how to get a man to call you
2009-01-13 - goodbye gift from Red
2009-01-13 - the sleepover
2009-01-11 - goat dreams
2009-01-11 - the fine line
2009-01-09 - sleeplessness night and busy day
2009-01-08 - a day completed
2009-01-07 - the asshole game
2009-01-07 - fear of flaws
2009-01-07 - it's not the reason I think
2009-01-07 - january 6th
2009-01-06 - a night of surprises
2009-01-05 - kissing epistle etc
2009-01-03 - getting caught up...
2009-01-02 - 2008: a year in review
2008-12-31 - frosting out of the can
2008-12-31 - 4 of cups and 8 of wands
2008-12-30 - loneliness
2008-12-30 - men who are hurting, they're like magnets!
2008-12-27 - home under blankets
2008-12-26 - somebody sucked the joy out of my holiday!
2008-12-23 - judgements from a sick girl
2008-12-23 - slightly better! and men and porn
2008-12-21 - the undecided M dream
2008-12-21 - date with Swing
2008-12-20 - 6 things to be grateful for
2008-12-20 - men with pith, etc.
2008-12-19 - dreams and earaches!
2008-12-18 - how will i know?
2008-12-17 - who can know?
2008-12-16 - phone calls from boys, etc...
2008-12-15 - long story short
2008-12-15 - a little crazy- shocked the shit outta me!
2008-12-13 - mistakes and stuff
2008-12-12 - being happy and believing
2008-12-11 - a shortage of erections
2008-12-10 - the letter e
2008-12-08 - something to be grateful for
2008-12-08 - the end of training...
2008-12-04 - a day of accomplishment and indulgence
2008-12-03 - cancellations, wrinkles, and more
2008-12-03 - clearer and clearer
2008-12-01 - one and two
2008-12-01 - margarine
2008-11-29 - i couldn't do it
2008-11-24 - owning my beauty
2008-11-23 - saturday ponderings
2008-11-21 - a complaint or two, and a word about timing
2008-11-20 - jumble
2008-11-17 - note to self: overwhelming levels
2008-11-16 - me and my options
2008-11-14 - kicking and screaming
2008-11-13 - in which the answer is revealed
2008-11-13 - in any case...
2008-11-12 - what to say for myself
2008-11-10 - moth to the flame
2008-11-06 - too much sugar?
2008-11-05 - playing hard to get
2008-11-04 - I kissed a boy, and now he wants to tryst me
2008-10-31 - i do not know
2008-10-31 - howard calls me a nasty name
2008-10-30 - another day gone- between pie and laziness
2008-10-29 - I want to tell you
2008-10-29 - kind of organized
2008-10-28 - the white unicorn
2008-10-28 - surviving
2008-10-27 - invitation from a broken heart
2008-10-26 - questions and opinions
2008-10-26 - hard road
2008-10-25 - do I love him?
2008-10-24 - all I ever say
2008-10-23 - houseguests
2008-10-22 - saying it through music?
2008-10-20 - damage control
2008-10-18 - no harem for me, thanks
2008-10-16 - now we're getting somewhere
2008-10-15 - a full heart
2008-10-13 - boring check-in
2008-10-12 - squeaking by
2008-10-11 - what I'm going for
2008-10-10 - a little lonely
2008-10-10 - short note
2008-10-07 - single forever
2008-10-06 - gail, more birth control and another M
2008-10-04 - very soon
2008-10-03 - feeling his heart
2008-10-02 - a user and a loser
2008-10-02 - i will be all right
2008-10-01 - been gone...
2008-09-24 - i must be changing
2008-09-23 - after a rough weekend
2008-09-19 - boring boring boring
2008-09-18 - lost to the world
2008-09-17 - the mattress
2008-09-17 - the picture and the mattress
2008-09-13 - dinner, yum
2008-09-12 - one step at a time
2008-09-12 - loose ends and gossip
2008-09-12 - communication, of sorts, with Alphie
2008-09-11 - the cards
2008-09-10 - depressed and afraid
2008-09-08 - checking in, not very exciting
2008-09-06 - unbearable
2008-09-05 - a day of confusions
2008-09-04 - stupid IMs
2008-09-03 - the unexpected
2008-09-02 - a nice distraction
2008-09-02 - five complaints
2008-09-02 - learning something?
2008-09-01 - my new favorite thing
2008-08-31 - jewelry, dreams and dating
2008-08-29 - wrong with me...
2008-08-28 - the 28th of August
2008-08-24 - shiny packages and fairy-tale endings
2008-08-22 - anything I set my mind to
2008-08-20 - cycles of sadness and anger
2008-08-19 - who, me, stressed?
2008-08-17 - catchup
2008-08-12 - dog duty
2008-08-11 - running around
2008-08-09 - feeling better...
2008-08-09 - stressed and more
2008-08-08 - hate my bank
2008-08-08 - honesty
2008-08-07 - broken glass
2008-08-06 - little boys
2008-08-05 - ...and other irritations
2008-08-05 - rescuing babies
2008-08-05 - long day, no date
2008-08-02 - that, or something better
2008-08-02 - the big book
2008-08-01 - physical discomfort, dreams, and a boring life
2008-07-31 - the bottom line
2008-07-30 - less obsessive, more relieved
2008-07-30 - what happened?
2008-07-29 - the right frame of mind
2008-07-28 - moving forward
2008-07-27 - after the date
2008-07-26 - back from the wedding
2008-07-26 - last minute
2008-07-25 - hardly feel excited
2008-07-25 - dreamquiche
2008-07-25 - why I hate this
2008-07-23 - personal growth, a message from the cute man
2008-07-23 - picked up
2008-07-22 - but, tell us what you really think
2008-07-15 - change of scenery
2008-07-14 - everybody is an asshole, at one point or another
2008-07-13 - feeling slightly better
2008-07-13 - me, a person of substance
2008-07-12 - every day a little nightmare
2008-07-08 - my new template
2008-07-06 - riding the shark
2008-07-03 - responsibility and vampires
2008-07-02 - dumping some thoughts before going to work
2008-06-30 - new shoes?
2008-06-30 - bone ache
2008-06-30 - plants and things
2008-06-29 - unrequited love
2008-06-28 - whatever it takes
2008-06-27 - my new job
2008-06-27 - i used to be more interesting
2008-06-27 - more therapy
2008-06-26 - feathers and snow
2008-06-25 - giant popsicle
2008-06-24 - doozy of a dream, what does it mean?
2008-06-23 - just a thought
2008-06-23 - dreams of today and a healthy breakfast
2008-06-22 - possibility
2008-06-22 - avoiding the box of death
2008-06-22 - digging deep, and other stuff
2008-06-21 - liar, liar, pants on fire - i'm a shitty friend
2008-06-20 - update: the lump and everybody else
2008-06-20 - angel
2008-06-19 - difficult men, difficult me
2008-06-14 - big love, little love
2008-06-13 - hormones, Alphie, and proper parenting
2008-06-13 - feeling like I do
2008-06-12 - anniversary
2008-06-12 - reflection
2008-06-10 - long-ass day
2008-06-09 - preposterous ideas
2008-06-07 - quotes
2008-06-06 - the need-a-nap entry
2008-06-06 - no more resistance
2008-06-04 - getting through today
2008-06-03 - catching up after 6 days
2008-05-28 - more insomnia
2008-05-27 - the contents of my brain
2008-05-26 - if I can't shoot him, I'd at least like to stab him
2008-05-25 - letter to my big sister
2008-05-25 - meditaton on trust
2008-05-24 - ashes don't heave
2008-05-23 - scooped out heart and longing for butter
2008-05-22 - the cosmic significance of my bath towel
2008-05-22 - there or here
2008-05-22 - awake
2008-05-21 - no more nightmares, please
2008-05-20 - staying with myself
2008-05-20 - shit on a stick
2008-05-20 - harder than it looks
2008-05-19 - unsupported?
2008-05-19 - pizza and back spasms
2008-05-18 - powerless
2008-05-18 - message from the Universe
2008-05-18 - what I know for now
2008-05-17 - at the bone
2008-05-17 - the revenge wardrobe
2008-05-16 - Friday musings
2008-05-15 - invitation and a new dress
2008-05-15 - help help help
2008-05-15 - good for myself...
2008-05-14 - missing and afraid... a dream
2008-05-13 - new friends
2008-05-12 - nothing interesting to say
2008-05-12 - hmm, diaries...
2008-05-12 - crazy
2008-05-11 - three conversations
2008-05-10 - unrealistic expectations get you... disappointment
2008-05-08 - snooze alarm
2008-05-08 - new hair! pretty! aaargh!
2008-05-07 - to look forward to
2008-05-06 - trust and beauty
2008-05-06 - vanishing entry, man-themes, and a flood in the desert
2008-05-05 - cyberspace ate my healing entry!
2008-05-05 - please tell me
2008-05-05 - irritations and "as long as it takes"
2008-05-04 - dreams dreams dreams!
2008-05-04 - fruits and cookies
2008-05-03 - the breakup book
2008-05-02 - hard time
2008-05-02 - witch school
2008-05-02 - sweaty and sneaky
2008-05-01 - goals, nice memories, and hmm
2008-04-30 - the hollow grey moon
2008-04-29 - the lost child
2008-04-28 - getting seen through
2008-04-28 - my spiritual crisis
2008-04-28 - the pregnant dream, et al
2008-04-28 - 12:37am
2008-04-26 - coughing, nothing, and airlines
2008-04-25 - finances
2008-04-25 - tug of war
2008-04-25 - nobody's perfect
2008-04-25 - life is strange
2008-04-20 - dreams and a sore throat
2008-04-19 - till then
2008-04-18 - the next step?
2008-04-18 - swimming in numbness
2008-04-17 - adventures in travel
2008-04-16 - bug in my brain
2008-04-16 - tasks and therapy
2008-04-14 - being overwhelmed, pursued, and a little disappointed
2008-04-14 - nobody knows
2008-04-13 - exhausted update
2008-04-13 - i don't believe you
2008-04-12 - no time today!
2008-04-12 - tips, vulnerability, etc.
2008-04-11 - worry
2008-04-11 - a plan, of sorts
2008-04-10 - spring dreams
2008-04-09 - grrrr
2008-04-09 - bad attitude
2008-04-08 - slippery slope
2008-04-07 - treats
2008-04-06 - 2 men and moving on
2008-04-05 - the value of sleep
2008-04-04 - a new saw
2008-04-04 - lucky me
2008-04-03 - getting better
2008-04-03 - working it out
2008-04-03 - my plan
2008-04-02 - i remember
2008-04-01 - "friends" and problems
2008-03-31 - so be it
2008-03-28 - fuck him... and more
2008-03-26 - wily ego and waxing
2008-03-25 - finding fault
2008-03-23 - back to school
2008-03-22 - giving too freely and positive self-containment
2008-03-22 - pajamas
2008-03-22 - wanting to feel better
2008-03-21 - how to make myself happy, pt 2
2008-03-20 - the least I can do
2008-03-19 - my idiosyncrasies and strange thoughts
2008-03-19 - in a mood
2008-03-18 - waking up angry
2008-03-17 - grumpy
2008-03-17 - how to make myself happy, pt 1
2008-03-17 - the way I see beauty
2008-03-15 - bringing back the joy
2008-03-14 - here and now
2008-03-12 - awkward phase
2008-03-12 - another day, another depression
2008-03-11 - who am I?
2008-03-10 - peace, at last
2008-03-09 - luxurious life
2008-03-09 - letting go
2008-03-08 - maybe i'm better?
2008-03-07 - checking in once again
2008-03-07 - a new trend for me
2008-03-06 - definitely
2008-03-05 - making music
2008-03-05 - actions speak louder than words
2008-03-04 - apathy
2008-03-04 - good luck to all
2008-03-03 - the sweetest way possible
2008-03-02 - what to do?
2008-03-02 - girls and boys
2008-03-01 - my serious problem
2008-02-29 - under the wire
2008-02-29 - dreams, laundry, chaos, tears and laziness
2008-02-28 - ENTRY from 2/26/08
2008-02-26 - just love myself: the express elevator on my downward spiral
2008-02-25 - permission to be me
2008-02-25 - help me
2008-02-24 - dreams and fears
2008-02-23 - layers
2008-02-22 - needs and wants, and plans
2008-02-20 - other people's boyfriends, patience and more healing
2008-02-17 - another procrastination note
2008-02-16 - things to do
2008-02-16 - a massage, a comfort, and a possibility
2008-02-15 - if I don't...
2008-02-14 - things I like, and good things that happen
2008-02-13 - the issue of control
2008-02-13 - thanks for friends
2008-02-12 - peeling off the layers of limitation
2008-02-11 - waiting for Don
2008-02-11 - hidden beliefs and procrastination
2008-02-11 - all the help we can get
2008-02-09 - better yet?
2008-02-08 - women
2008-02-07 - calm before the storm
2008-02-06 - mostly shitty things
2008-02-05 - bummed out
2008-02-03 - fate on a bookshelf
2008-02-03 - life is looking up
2008-02-02 - revisiting, and recreating
2008-02-02 - small victories, reversed
2008-02-02 - small victories
2008-01-31 - -so tired I originally forgot to give this entry a title...
2008-01-31 - friends and the lessons they teach me
2008-01-31 - reprogramming and things to be excited about
2008-01-30 - out of this hole
2008-01-30 - rearranging
2008-01-30 - if I'd just go to bed when I should
2008-01-29 - observations, dreams, and waiting for a breakthrough
2008-01-27 - things I love, and that which I don't understand
2008-01-26 - the threads of rage
2008-01-25 - self-knowledge, self-reliance and freedom
2008-01-25 - insomnia
2008-01-24 - my day
2008-01-23 - keep dancing
2008-01-23 - like a scrub brush
2008-01-23 - another entry
2008-01-22 - having it all
2008-01-22 - bills, buzzwords and a tough job
2008-01-20 - f**k you
2008-01-19 - the ability to create
2008-01-19 - should have
2008-01-18 - guardian angel
2008-01-17 - 2 steps forward, 1 step back
2008-01-16 - stay tuned
2008-01-15 - pedestal
2008-01-14 - soulmate = soul shaker
2008-01-14 - free
2008-01-13 - jeans et al
2008-01-13 - how much i've grown
2008-01-12 - really
2008-01-12 - the world of triangles
2008-01-11 - not much
2008-01-09 - don't know how
2008-01-09 - revelations, true surrender, and a little judgment thrown in
2008-01-08 - love is not enough
2008-01-08 - more dreams
2008-01-07 - master class and the 8th grade
2008-01-07 - the best and the worst
2008-01-06 - the nasty ego
2008-01-06 - holes in my aura
2008-01-06 - good fortune and happenstance
2008-01-05 - you never know
2008-01-04 - little check-in
2008-01-04 - the hardest thing I've ever done
2008-01-03 - fur coat of fear and the number 2
2008-01-03 - ask and you shall receive
2008-01-02 - what to release, what to create
2008-01-02 - i'm just dedicated
2008-01-01 - the future: 2008
2007-12-31 - this too shall pass
2007-12-30 - judgements and intentions
2007-12-30 - life is amazing
2007-12-30 - end of the year in/activities
2007-12-29 - some things to remember
2007-12-29 - wake me in march
2007-12-29 - miscommunications
2007-12-28 - the feeling train
2007-12-26 - love and fear... again
2007-12-24 - higher degree of self-clarity
2007-12-23 - compassion for self
2007-12-23 - baby dreams
2007-12-23 - under orders of the wax lady
2007-12-22 - blessed mother punching pillows
2007-12-21 - pissed
2007-12-21 - soul searching and blah blah blah
2007-12-20 - end of the day
2007-12-20 - all for now
2007-12-19 - slow day
2007-12-19 - tired, chillin' and skinny
2007-12-19 - from 12/16- belated entry
2007-12-13 - early morning entry
2007-12-12 - long row to hoe
2007-12-12 - soul work
2007-12-11 - onward
2007-12-10 - what I see in myself
2007-12-09 - lists
2007-12-09 - profile changes and attitude changes
2007-12-08 - for now
2007-12-07 - a great opportunity
2007-12-07 - love or fear
2007-12-06 - internal and external
2007-12-05 - anger, cookies, pain
2007-12-05 - out of my head
2007-12-03 - support
2007-11-16 - long-awaited call from m
2007-11-11 - carrying on
2007-11-10 - adventurous day
2007-11-09 - abbreviations, stress, and more
2007-11-09 - judgement and mystery calls
2007-11-08 - ha ha
2007-11-07 - magical sweatshirts, too much sleeping and issues of trust
2007-11-06 - random surprises and disconnecting from the past
2007-11-05 - love and technology
2007-11-04 - cleaning and musing
2007-11-03 - doubt and movement
2007-11-02 - too much thinking
2007-11-01 - a little bit better
2007-11-01 - halloween update
2007-10-31 - crash!
2007-10-30 - different choices = better results
2007-10-16 - weekend with M
2007-10-12 - funky duck
2007-10-12 - food!
2007-10-10 - an update on most popular characters
2007-10-09 - fear, ex-wives, and food
2007-10-05 - squalor management
2007-10-05 - new and fresh
2007-10-03 - return
2007-01-06 - sick and tired
2007-01-03 - the new year, same neuroses
2006-12-29 - relationships, and things I hate.
2006-12-18 - checking in on a lazy day
2006-11-18 - making it official
2006-11-16 - checking in
2006-11-10 - dating
2006-11-01 - healing dreams
2006-10-24 - catching up
2006-10-23 - eeek 62 days
2006-08-22 - one man out, one man in
2006-08-20 - done
2006-08-10 - clearing things up
2006-07-22 - laundromat = hell
2006-07-20 - clarity
2006-07-16 - doing the right thing
2006-07-15 - down with love
2006-07-13 - blood sugar and online dating
2006-07-11 - insomnia, shopping, and muscle pain
2006-07-11 - tattletale
2006-07-10 - a glass of wine
2006-07-09 - commitment
2006-07-06 - healing is happening
2006-07-06 - fall in a hole
2006-07-02 - ready for a boyfriend
2006-06-28 - nothing new
2006-06-26 - rage
2006-06-24 - freedom
2006-06-20 - tv is saved
2006-06-18 - working
2006-06-15 - figuring it all out
2006-06-14 - i am the way i am
2006-06-13 - wtf
2006-06-12 - ugh
2006-06-09 - something to offer me
2006-06-08 - good visit
2006-06-05 - confusion intrusion
2006-05-31 - dreams,
2006-05-30 - job search in a too short dress and blistered feet
2006-05-29 - today's ponderings
2006-05-28 - the pattern
2006-05-27 - one small step for me
2006-05-26 - shame & a snub
2006-05-24 - it's not me!
2006-05-23 - different from last year
2006-05-16 - something very wrong
2006-05-16 - life for now
2006-05-12 - dream interpretation
2006-05-12 - dreams & a return
2006-05-11 - angel conference and forgiving myself
2006-05-10 - get a frickin' job!
2006-05-10 - he's just not that into me
2006-04-24 - gone for a spell
2006-04-24 - curious
2006-04-22 - ironed out
2006-04-22 - taking care of me
2006-04-21 - speculation
2006-04-19 - the end
2006-04-11 - money where his mouth is
2006-04-10 - love, duck
2006-04-08 - up to his old tricks
2006-04-05 - changin'
2006-03-29 - a good sport
2006-03-22 - i want to feel better!
2006-03-21 - get me to a nunnery
2006-03-20 - man in my bed
2006-03-17 - a day between us
2006-03-15 - folders
2006-03-14 - why?
2006-03-14 - must be done
2006-03-12 - kissing wisconsin
2006-03-11 - this and that
2006-03-03 - self-esteem
2006-03-03 - call from wisconsin
2006-02-23 - changing my attitude
2006-02-20 - drinkin'
2006-02-18 - keepin' on keepin on
2006-02-18 - up all night
2006-02-17 - blowouts and unconditional love
2006-02-07 - i'm getting a job
2006-02-06 - entry #288
2006-02-02 - tired
2006-01-30 - i am a nerd
2006-01-29 - jealous and pissed
2006-01-28 - sadness, entitlement, attitude...reunion
2006-01-26 - i've been tagged
2006-01-26 - a good person
2006-01-18 - 30 whole seconds
2006-01-17 - how's life?
2006-01-14 - did my part
2006-01-13 - a coma, a call, and a cleaning
2006-01-10 - i don't really know
2006-01-08 - some bitching, and a reclaimed sister
2006-01-07 - buzz
2006-01-05 - bitch of a day
2006-01-04 - some tears, and a book
2006-01-03 - suspicious smiley faces
2005-12-27 - less pain for me
2005-12-24 - (almost)
2005-12-24 - google
2005-12-23 - immobilized, in the same shirt
2005-12-22 - i'm a bum, and i hate my friends
2005-12-21 - oh, cb called
2005-12-20 - wouldn't it be nice?
2005-12-18 - forgive me
2005-11-30 - like sugar?
2005-11-29 - another bad date
2005-11-28 - relationships
2005-11-27 - space
2005-11-22 - into me
2005-11-16 - i can feel my face
2005-11-15 - oxytocin
2005-11-15 - little hurts, great life
2005-11-14 - interesting and hurtful, among other things
2005-11-13 - full of shit
2005-11-13 - my own personal drama
2005-11-12 - pit of despair
2005-11-12 - paper or plastic?
2005-11-11 - settled
2005-11-11 - therapy?
2005-11-11 - who am I trying to fool?
2005-11-10 - lost my patience
2005-11-10 - second best
2005-11-08 - cuteboy
2005-11-03 - slightly sick
2005-11-01 - halloween, or aleda day?
2005-10-29 - one hopes...
2005-10-29 - cuteboy
2005-10-28 - new someone
2005-10-26 - still here
2005-10-20 - aleda and emily
2005-10-18 - patterns, and a list
2005-10-18 - big loser
2005-10-15 - 10 years ago...
2005-10-15 - hole in my tooth
2005-10-08 - doozy of a day, louie's bad behavior
2005-10-07 - never again
2005-10-07 - insane
2005-10-06 - better listeners
2005-10-06 - mistakes i have made
2005-10-06 - busy day
2005-10-05 - 45%
2005-10-03 - dramatic visit coming up
2005-10-02 - money money money stress
2005-10-01 - longings and feelings
2005-09-21 - tara reid
2005-09-21 - need advice, please
2005-09-18 - things accomplished, and some thoughts
2005-09-17 - inspired
2005-09-15 - support
2005-09-14 - yay for me
2005-09-11 - anger
2005-09-11 - nothing to complain about
2005-09-10 - i'm back
2005-08-28 - disappointing men
2005-08-24 - responses
2005-08-22 - pain
2005-08-21 - pudgy
2005-08-21 - accomplished
2005-08-17 - crotch-biters
2005-08-16 - dedication
2005-08-16 - slightly sober
2005-08-16 - what would Diary do?
2005-08-15 - bitchin'
2005-08-14 - big plan, a pregnancy, and goals
2005-08-13 - ******
2005-08-12 - keep moving
2005-08-12 - believe it or not
2005-08-10 - #6
2005-08-09 - 6 things
2005-08-08 - teeth
2005-08-07 - old stuff coming up
2005-08-06 - loves me, loves me not
2005-08-06 - dreams & finances
2005-08-06 - bugs xan anthony michael hall
2005-08-04 - love quilt
2005-08-02 - he loves me for my mind
2005-08-02 - a review
2005-08-01 - frosting
2005-07-31 - my own business
2005-07-30 - meditation?
2005-07-25 - except you
2005-07-12 - life as i know it
2005-05-19 - celery
2005-05-05 - dumb argument = yuck
2005-04-25 - grumpy spring
2005-04-24 - triangles
2005-04-22 - replaced? or multiplied?
2005-04-06 - catch-up
2005-03-29 - back again
2005-02-18 - not chosen?
2005-02-03 - very serious
2005-01-31 - rose & hammer
2005-01-28 - sugar crash.... and the downward spiral that goes with it
2005-01-26 - anxiety yet again...
2005-01-25 - big business
2005-01-19 - down in the polls
2005-01-13 - a scary night at the bar
2005-01-12 - evil me
2005-01-11 - dreams
2005-01-11 - my sex update
2004-11-23 - exciting
2004-11-18 - staying afloat?
2004-11-17 - exhaustion, irritation, confusion
2004-11-17 - good night
2004-11-16 - work changes and my embarrassing sickness
2004-11-12 - not so hot
2004-11-10 - fat, men, libido
2004-11-09 - dry spell
2004-11-02 - good to be a woman
2004-10-30 - the party
2004-10-27 - hard to get along with
2004-10-27 - beautiful happy self
2004-10-18 - negativity
2004-10-15 - the sex thing
2004-10-07 - games and more games
2004-10-02 - Psycho again
2004-10-01 - making up
2004-09-30 - need a break
2004-09-29 - still grieving
2004-09-28 - haitus
2004-09-27 - the long and the short
2004-09-24 - aaaaah
2004-09-23 - you just never know
2004-09-21 - my dad
2004-09-16 - i don't care
2004-09-12 - a bust
2004-09-09 - a peppy thursday
2004-09-06 - i am just writing what's in my head
2004-09-01 - checking in
2004-08-30 - it
2004-08-24 - wise words
2004-08-23 - mindfuck
2004-08-20 - too much is just too much
2004-08-19 - sneaky entry
2004-08-18 - reminders
2004-08-16 - little monster
2004-08-12 - positive note
2004-08-09 - duck problem and blueberry velocity
2004-08-06 - lesson
2004-08-03 - inner critic strikes again
2004-08-02 - weekend pt 1
2004-07-28 - overcommunicator
2004-07-27 - feeding my head
2004-07-26 - bitching/musing
2004-07-21 - the meeting
2004-07-16 - this and that
2004-07-14 - nothin much
2004-07-13 - inspiration
2004-07-12 - bound
2004-07-08 - yuck
2004-07-08 - knife in the heart and pseudo intercourse
2004-07-07 - what the hell
2004-06-16 - as predicted
2004-06-14 - riding the tiger of impossible love
2004-06-10 - severe denial, a confession, and hope
2004-06-07 - men management
2004-06-04 - ammunition
2004-06-03 - suckrut
2004-05-28 - in demand
2004-05-27 - confidence machine
2004-05-26 - heartache
2004-05-26 - naivete
2004-05-25 - sucker punched
2004-05-21 - ducks and chickens cannot be friends
2004-05-20 - 12 monkeys
2004-05-20 - downward hormonal spiral
2004-05-19 - the decline of my civilization
2004-05-18 - chemistry?
2004-05-17 - the latest episode
2004-05-14 - interview #2
2004-05-14 - mr. baddate
2004-05-13 - internet date #1
2004-05-12 - bpm (bipolar maniac)
2004-05-11 - ruined
2004-05-10 - bad behavior
2004-05-07 - life...continued
2004-05-05 - the positives
2004-05-04 - courage and vulnerability
2004-05-04 - my best
2004-05-03 - the answer
2004-04-30 - d-day is tomorrow!
2004-04-29 - countdown
2004-04-26 - suspense
2004-04-23 - snail snot
2004-04-19 - "friends"
2004-04-16 - enter ex, stage right
2004-04-15 - seeds
2004-04-12 - think
2004-04-09 - inner critic
2004-04-08 - h-day
2004-04-07 - fish reject
2004-04-07 - scenario #2
2004-04-06 - hamster wheel
2004-04-05 - cosmic joke
2004-04-02 - flaming triceps
2004-04-02 - scenario #1
2004-04-01 - smells good
2004-03-31 - hopeful vs. hopeless
2004-03-30 - life-is-normal
2004-03-29 - rollercoaster
2004-03-26 - holing up
2004-03-25 - reservoir dogs
2004-03-25 - scarcity model
2004-03-22 - getting what i need
2004-03-19 - lonely
2004-03-19 - honesty
2004-03-18 - coma
2004-03-16 - functioning
2004-03-15 - 48 days
2004-03-09 - EXCITEMENT
2004-03-08 - distance, hope, and $
2004-03-05 - here again
2004-03-04 - CF ex-sighting not exciting
2004-03-04 - pain and sadness
2004-03-03 - shaky
2004-03-03 - out of my element
2004-03-02 - language of love
2004-03-01 - mysterious
2004-03-01 - reeling (70%)
2004-02-27 - drifting, eating, holding
2004-02-26 - waiting to inhale
2004-02-25 - chasms
2004-02-11 - showdown
2004-02-10 - CF
2004-02-09 - the ex
2004-02-06 - peaks and valleys
2004-02-06 - snoop-oops
2004-02-05 - i'm tired
2004-02-03 - subtle shift
2004-02-03 - boundaries
2004-02-02 - screwed
2004-02-02 - if the buddha joined fight club
2004-01-30 - this entry actually written by my snarky, evil twin
2004-01-30 - Sybil
2004-01-29 - annoyance and the muffin
2004-01-29 - dreams and burning buildings
2004-01-28 - direction
2004-01-28 - wandering eye
2004-01-27 - the resume is submitted!
2004-01-26 - horse-like
2004-01-23 - mojo
2004-01-23 - anxiety
2004-01-22 - short and boring
2004-01-22 - choices
2004-01-21 - the mature and adult thing to do
2004-01-21 - fragile
2004-01-16 - new world order
2004-01-15 - save the planet
2004-01-15 - lies, continued
2004-01-14 - lies
2004-01-13 - the evidence
2004-01-09 - the ladder
2004-01-09 - story of abuse
2004-01-08 - further blathering
2004-01-08 - the magic wand
2004-01-07 - should I allow my head to sprout a gray hair?
2004-01-06 - complaining again
2004-01-04 - embrace
2004-01-03 - the almost-office affair
2004-01-02 - going slow
2004-01-01 - emotional glop
2003-12-31 - year in review
2003-12-30 - Wise Woman
2003-12-30 - 15 again
2003-12-23 - beginning

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