My new way to deal with the pain of Alphie, M, Gia and Thomas:
I'm just referencing the fact that I didn't know any of these people 10 years ago. It wasn't like I was over the moon, because I was dealing with breaking up with Frank- but thinking of Frank no longer affects me. Instead I can imagine that life before all this pain and frustration specifically related to these people. When I think about being 10 years younger, not knowing Alphie (because I met him in 2004), or any of them, I feel somewhat clear and relieved. I didn't need any of them- I lived by myself in the city, danced all the time, had a shitload of friends. I was fine without them. And I would like to be again. This was before I had been run through the wringer, heartbroken and generally splintered apart by all my interactions with these people.
So for today, that seems to work for me.
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